My dear sister you are very close to Allah, for He is has put you in some difficult siuation, and Allah only wants you to become close to Him, so you can be one of those who can stand in His shade.
Hang in there, hold on to the rope of Allah. You are very specail, remember this, because you have a chance to beocme closer to Allah - take advantage.
I will remember you in my du'as insha'Allah, and I make du'a that I can meet you one day, so I too can beocme close to Allah.