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Asslamo Allaikum,
I was trying to do some work last night and the kids kept bugging me and wouldn’t let me get on. Lately I have been having serious problems with finding time for anything and every time I want to do something , there is something that needs to be done like buying kids toys, nappies, they want to go the toilet etc. etc. etc.
So my mind went back over 8-9 years ago when I was divorced!
It was the WORST period of my life, when I finally decided to get a divorce after years of suffering emotional and psychological abuse and torture my first reaction was “Right! I am NEVER going to get married AGAIN. I don’t want to any relationship with a woman, EVER!”
And then I got lonely!
I got so lonely it hurt, I stayed longer at work, I watched TV (stupid programs that I wouldn’t normally watch), I watched movies (DVDs after DVDs) …on weekends I either went driving aimlessly and exploring outdoors or went back to work to dig up and make up non-sense work that I could have taken care of in the week!
I spent hours and hours on the Internet till my eyes hurt…
I obviously prayed at the Mosque but most people go home after Esha to be with the family and that’s when loneliness used to hit me, big time!
You have to experience this to understand what I am talking about! It wasn’t physical need of a woman, this was just loneliness, someone to talk to etc…
I even contemplated dating someone just to get out of my loneliness and then Allah (SWT) saved me from the Fitnah, although so many girls (Muslims & Non-Muslims) implied it but I cried to Allah (SWT) to save me from Haram.
Then I realised that I have no choice BUT to get married and then it got worse…
So I devised a system i.e. my spreadsheet and all that!
All I wanted to do was to find a practising Sister who is on Qur’aan & Sunnah and it was a nightmare, I met one weird Sister after another; I don’t have time to go into stories but trust me there are a lot of weird women out there!
Beautiful women but sort of messed up (from an Islamic perspective)!
And then I almost gave up and said forget this! There is no hope of finding anyone suitable because I was sick of communicating (e-mail, phone, visits)….I met so many Muslim women that most of my replies were Auto-Pilot or document (copy & paste on e-mail)….They all asked the same bloody questions, incidentally.
And then out of nowhere I met my wife…She wasn’t even on the radar, someone introduced and we got married & everything just fell in place!
Job done!
What saved me from absolute and total mental breakdown was:
• Belief in Allah (SWT) and a lot of duas
• Sticking to a routine as much as I could…doing the little things everyday, consistently to get my mind OFF the big LONELY picture of my life
• Hanging around Good and Practising Muslims
• Never losing hope (coming very close to it many times)
If I was to sum up my whole message in two verses, it would be:
I was trying to do some work last night and the kids kept bugging me and wouldn’t let me get on. Lately I have been having serious problems with finding time for anything and every time I want to do something , there is something that needs to be done like buying kids toys, nappies, they want to go the toilet etc. etc. etc.
So my mind went back over 8-9 years ago when I was divorced!
It was the WORST period of my life, when I finally decided to get a divorce after years of suffering emotional and psychological abuse and torture my first reaction was “Right! I am NEVER going to get married AGAIN. I don’t want to any relationship with a woman, EVER!”
And then I got lonely!
I got so lonely it hurt, I stayed longer at work, I watched TV (stupid programs that I wouldn’t normally watch), I watched movies (DVDs after DVDs) …on weekends I either went driving aimlessly and exploring outdoors or went back to work to dig up and make up non-sense work that I could have taken care of in the week!
I spent hours and hours on the Internet till my eyes hurt…
I obviously prayed at the Mosque but most people go home after Esha to be with the family and that’s when loneliness used to hit me, big time!
You have to experience this to understand what I am talking about! It wasn’t physical need of a woman, this was just loneliness, someone to talk to etc…
I even contemplated dating someone just to get out of my loneliness and then Allah (SWT) saved me from the Fitnah, although so many girls (Muslims & Non-Muslims) implied it but I cried to Allah (SWT) to save me from Haram.
Then I realised that I have no choice BUT to get married and then it got worse…
So I devised a system i.e. my spreadsheet and all that!
All I wanted to do was to find a practising Sister who is on Qur’aan & Sunnah and it was a nightmare, I met one weird Sister after another; I don’t have time to go into stories but trust me there are a lot of weird women out there!
Beautiful women but sort of messed up (from an Islamic perspective)!
And then I almost gave up and said forget this! There is no hope of finding anyone suitable because I was sick of communicating (e-mail, phone, visits)….I met so many Muslim women that most of my replies were Auto-Pilot or document (copy & paste on e-mail)….They all asked the same bloody questions, incidentally.
And then out of nowhere I met my wife…She wasn’t even on the radar, someone introduced and we got married & everything just fell in place!
Job done!
What saved me from absolute and total mental breakdown was:
• Belief in Allah (SWT) and a lot of duas
• Sticking to a routine as much as I could…doing the little things everyday, consistently to get my mind OFF the big LONELY picture of my life
• Hanging around Good and Practising Muslims
• Never losing hope (coming very close to it many times)
If I was to sum up my whole message in two verses, it would be:
[94:5] So, undoubtedly, along with the hardship there is ease.
[94:6] Undoubtedly, along with the hardship there is ease.
[94:6] Undoubtedly, along with the hardship there is ease.