muslimah-2k8
Junior Member
I too was introduced to Islam by a Muslim man who I met on the internet. I feel so much love for this man who I have not yet met in person. He never forced me to believe in Islam but gently persuaded me to "just read the Quran" which I have been doing.
I was baptised Catholic and Mormon but I dont follow the Christian faith although I have always believed that Jesus was the son of God. This has been the hardest thing for me to give up in my mind. What helped me to accept Jesus as a Prophet like all the other Prophets and NOT as the begotten son of God is what I read that we are trained by our parents to believe in certain aspects of different religions. So with that in mind I really asked myself. I searched my heart and found that I had no proof whatsoever that what I was taught all my life was in fact the TRUTH. When I did that my mind (and heart) was opened and I began to understand everything I am reading in The Holy Quran.
I recently started to read the life of the Prophet Muhammed (PBUH) and have accepted that he truely is a messenger of Allah. Ok so now I feel almost ready to take Shahada but.................I read the posts here. It made me doubt my true intentions once again. I had to ask myself "if it were not for this man who I am in love with would I care about Islam?" and "if something happened that I didnt end up with this man who I am in love with will I still believe in Islam?" In other words "am I doing all of this just for HIM or for MYSELF?"
These are tough questions and I cant pray about it because my prayers are not accepted by Allah and I am so afraid that it wont be Allah answering them if I was to pray but rather Shaitan answering them. WHAT CAN I DO? How can I get the answer I need to this very serious question? And Im afraid (terribly afraid) of what my answer will be. The man I love asked me this same question and I answered that I believe in Islam and even without him I will continue in it but Im not sure if thats the truth or just what I want to believe. This topic has brought some serious issues to the forefront of my mind and I dont have the answers I need.
So I guess my question is the same as the topic starter "HOW WILL I REVERT?" Everyone currently in my life is totally against me reverting to Islam. EVERYONE except this man who I love so much but have not yet even met in person. I feel so alone.
You are not alone sister....... we are with you...... we are always there to help you out in any way whatsoever possible....... don't for a moment think you are alone......