hello,
I am a coverted muslima, and i think all believers get blessings it is just the way you see it. We are all blessed by receiving the understanding of islam(i am not trying to look down on you, don't get me wrong) but a lot of people don't see the blessings in the things they have. To busy with their materialistic lives or just never happy. I think one thing is that you question yourself: where you talking to arabs or muslims, people with black hair are not always muslims, because if you ask a firm muslim about his blessings he will answer you a whole list, I'll give you mine
I was married and pregnant, but we didn't have a place for ourselves, my husband and i both lived at our parents houses. I gave birth to 2 healthy kids(blessing) and we moved constantly from one place to the other( his parents, my parents, his parents... and so on) my eldest son was two years of age when I gor very depressed about the whole situation. My father really hates islam and islam was forbidden in my parents house. All my stuff i had to hide, i couldn't wear my hijaab(islamic clothing) and my parents drink alcohol every day, smoke and are against islam, so you can imagine with small babies that's not very healthy. his parents where very cultural, a little islam mixed with a whole lot of cultural influences, so also not ideal for me, but alhamdulilah(thanks to god) i could pray and read there. Anyway at that moment i really became very close to Allah and even now i can't imagine how we coped in a bedroom as big as 2meters, by 3meters. With two kids and two adults, but okay. Ik was starting to practice my islam and gain my nowledge, i had often prayed for our own place to stay, but here in holland it's very hard to get a house, waitinglists are as long as waiting for 4 years till 7 years, before waiting 4 years it is almost impossible to get a place, i was waiting for two years at that time. So it looked kinda hopeless. I prayed and prayed for all kinds of things, but at one moment i got so fed up with every thing and cried, i prayed while beggin for a house. that was at a monday i guess. Mu husband was not as practising as i was, thought he was a muslim just by being moroccan. So i tried to explain all kinds of things about islam and started to talk about the necessity of telling what you want in your prayers instead of only saying what we have to say i our prayers.He said: no Allah knows what i want. I told him yes, but if you want something very bad, you need to ask and Allah will give it to you, it won't take anything of His blessings. He also never prayed in an mosque wich is obliged for men. So I started about the fridayprayer(very important for us) and asked him if he wanted to go next friday, he said we will see. So i guessed he wasn't going. At friday i was at my parents house and got a call he went to the mosque and had prayed there. I thought alhamdulilah! finally, maybe this will lead to more, so i went to his house, 30 km away and stayed there, saturday i went shopping with his sister i an islamic street, bought some books and went to his place, when my father called, we had been selected for a house!!! after two years of waiting, we couldn't believe it, my father also thought it was a mistake and told me to call them next monday. So i did, And alhamdulilah we were first on the list, the house was ours! i always hoped for a small house, with at least one bedroom, we got a very big house, with 4 rooms, two big gardens!!! alhamdulilah!!! I told my husband immediatly,and he told me he had asked for it, the day before in his fridayprayer at the mosque
That was one blessing
there have been lots of blessings in our lives, the most recent one is that after a long time that my husband wasn't practising islam, i decided to give him 30 days to change, or i would divorce him, i thought about it before and asked advice on my situation at different scholars through the net and in mosques, but nobody gave me a concrete answer on what to do. So at this point a was so certain about my decision, i talked to my husband and gave him lots of evidences in islam on how a mariage supposed to be and how he should behave like a muslim. He was very quiet and said nothing. My idea was i told him now, so he could get used to me leaving him in 30 days with the kids. The next day he was gone, i didn't know where he went, i thought he was just upset and left to think, so after a while he came into the house, greets me with salam aleikum(muslim greeting, peace be with you) and sat down, i asked him where he went, he told me he went to the mosque and after that day, he has prayed every prayer he could in the mosque here. this all happended after out talking at febrary 27th, so his 30 days are over and i am more than happy. He changed his life completely, bad friends, he never went there anymore, he is always looking for knowledge, reading the quran praying and everything Allahu akbar (god is great, not a jihadi shout as you might think).
These are two major things that changed my life and ofcourse my conversionis too, if i can find it anywhere on the site i will link it into this threat.
I think everything we experience is a blessing, something good is a blessing and something bad will be a blessing in the hereafter, because for the hard things that happen i this life, you carry with patience and firm believe in Allah, you will be rewarded for in the next life, the real life, inshallah(if god wants)
And from me to you i would like to add, if there is ever a moment in your life, where you think or ask yourself, is this the real life, is this (what you believe now) the right path. Open your heart completely and let God guide you in any direction. Just be real open to yourself, you don't have to tell anyone, and you don't have to react on this. Just keep it in mind.
much love,
Rachel, (Maryam)
