Sister Precious star
A lady I know well, was panicking about her age, but she was hopeful. Alhamdullilah that day came and she married at 36. But looking back, she says I was fussy. She didn't want to marry someone who is divorced as she was single. She put an age limit for potential suitors. Not open to marrying from other cultures...etc..and now that she is married she says she was being so silly and didn't help her situation..marrying a divrced man is fine, another culture is fine,what matters is khuluq and deen!
you find in some families, like if the daughter has masters, the potential husband has to have no less. Although thats good, but it is not "the" criteria for a happay marriage. These just add to an already difficult situation.
As for you dear sister, I 'm not assuming you have these. you might be doing all you can to make things easy but it is not happening. But have a think about things that could be possible barriers that you may be unaware of and put your trust in Allah swt.
Sister, don't tire yourself worrying. Do you agree that sometimes when we are looking for something we never seem to find it, but it we don't think about it, its just there staring at us in the face?
Try and gain your happiness from other things in life. Sister islamerica suggesed adopting. Great idea, but if you feel this is a committment that you are not quite ready for, another option could be working in an orphange, or in a nursery. It could give you that sense of joy that you are craving.
I have a friend who works in a nursery, and she tells me I don't feel I want to have more children.She's immersed with children. Orphanages and children with special needs are great places to gain reward from Allah swt and gives you personal satisfaction.
If possible, join sisters circles if possible. Sisters in Islam are for each other and strengthen each other.
"Those who believe, and whose hearts find satisfaction in the remembrance of Allah. for without doubt in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find satisfaction. Ar-Rad, Chapter #13, Verse #28)
You might think, its easy for sisters who have children to speak, but don't forget we have our own test and trials too, that we need to have patience for. I find this aya so beautiful. This is dunia. It has many challenges and tests to our patience. We need Allah swt to pour patience on us.
"Our Lord! Pour forth on us patience"
Al-Baqara, Chapter #2, Verse #250
I hope Allah makes it easy for you and to all our sisters who need to get married and have children.
I have met people who did not have children for 15 years, 10 years and now they are too busy to scratch their heads. they have a nursery at home! never loose hope inshAllah.