As salamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu dear brother
I am a stranger to you, you're a stranger to me. I do not know you, you don't know me too. Yet I love you for the sake of Allah Subhanahu wa Taala. When I read your thread, I took time out of my hectic schedule and decided to pen down my humble thoughts.
Masha Allah, the brothers and sisters, have given great advice to you. Just read the post of brother ayman. Remember that by stopping to practice Islam, you'll not stop getting trials from Allah Subhanahu Wa Taala. He will test you for sure time and time again. That is why we're in this world. It is the shaitan which is trying to make you weak, mentally and physically. By succumbing to your emotions, shaitan is trying to gain upper hand and deprive you of the mercy of Allah Subhanahu wa Taala.
Do you think the christians, the jews, the hindus, the atheists etc are not tested? They are tested and put on trials. But you see the mercy of Allah Subhanahu wa Taala. Sometimes these non-muslims receive the mercy of Allah through the tests and trials and they accept Islam by the guidance of Allah Taala. However the ones who are arrogant and stubborn, become more arrogant after the trials and tests.
The story of pharaoh is a reminder to all of us. When Allah Subhanahu wa Taala ordered Musa alaihi salam and his brother Harun, to go and speak to pharaoh, Allah Taala told them to be soft spoken and gentle while speaking to pharaoh. Imagine the pharaoh, who had so much of ignorance, arrogance, evil feelings and hatred inside him, yet Allah Subhanahu wa Taala was soft and gentle towards him. But later when his behaviour reached extreme point, he met his fate.
The fitnah caused by the brothers at your mosque is not new and you're not the first victim. There have been many instances of such cases around the world. Human intentions are never known to us, but even if they were disappointed they should have explained to you modestly.
Once I was going through difficult times and I sought advice from a brother. He told me that whenever I go through hard times I should read the stories of the prophet and messengers, because the trials and tests which they go through, is never ever comparable to us. They are so massive and huge that if we were to go through them, we'd die through such burden of trials. Have you read the history of our beloved Prophet Muhammed (sallallahu alaihi wa sallam)? Read the book - The Sealed Nectar. Go through the stories of Prophet Isa, Musa, Yusuf, Nuh, Lut etc. and you'll feel the change.
Lastly I would like tell these words - There are a group of people who have the reality of worshiping Allah alone,without partner, such that if they face any hardship, they immediately resort to Prayer & supplication without a second thought.These people will raise your IMAAN, with Allah’s permission, though they are very hard to find these days.
May Allah bless you brother, may He make you strong in your eeman, may He guide you in the path of Righteousness, may He save you from the fitnah of this world, from the fitnah of Dajjal, from the trials of the grave, from the evil whisperings of Shaitan and from Hell fire.
Please keep me in your duwas as well.
walaikum as salam.