As salamu alaykum wa rahmatullahi wabrakatuhu
You can ask your close brothers ( or sisters) about yourself, what does he think of you, your personality, your character etc etc. ?
I am studying with a Malaysian Muslim brother. So I once asked him, what does he think of me? Straightforward he said, " You lose temper easily ma brother. You lose patience and get angry pretty fast. Except that your personality, your character, your behaviour everything is great. You are really a very good Muslim brother."
I feel, you might misjudge yourself. So better ask the ones close to you. In that way you will have a mixed and diverse opinion, which will help you to analyse yourself in deep.
By the grace of Almighty Allah, Alhamdulillah things will get better. Hopefully I will get rid of that soon. Although I try being patient a lot, but the kind of people who are living around gives really hard time. I cannot see something wrong going around. I will have to voice out. I cannot keep it inside me.
Ok and refering to your question akhee, I try to learn from my own mistakes as well as from others mistakes. So Am I smart and wise ????? woow
Remember me in your duas brothers and sisters.
wa/salam