Sorry I accidentally posted it in 'Sisters only' at first, so I copied it here, didn't know how to move a post...
Salaam 'aleikum,
I have "joined" Islam, so to say, about half a year ago. Now I want to wear proper hijab but am troubled at the same time... I have worn it a couple of times outdoors, and have no trouble with it. I get no strange looks where I live (Amsterdam is quite an open and accepting city), only sometimes the question why I chose Islam, but that doesn't bother me and I like telling people why, so that they can learn about Islam too. The only thing is... I still live with my mother and when she sees me with hijab she starts crying, sometimes quite heavily too. That hurts me so deeply inside. I cannot stand to see her cry and I try to explain and then she says she does accept it, but she still gets really upset. I cannot go out with her wearing hijab, and we go out together a lot; days out, shopping, weekends away, etc. A couple of times now I've worn hijab when she didn't know, I put it on when she had left or on the gallery of our flat. But it feels so hypocrite to wear hijab one day and not the next. I'm really troubled.... Should I continue wearing hijab like this untill she accepts, or wait with hijab altogether until she does so I can wear it fulltime? It feels even worse to sometimes wear it then to not wear it at all.....
Really need some advise from reverts who maybe went through the same, and I know it is only for Allah (swt) that I wear it, but my mother won't listen to an argument like that anyway...
Please help me I really don't know what to do (btw, I do, in any case, always wear hijab when I go to the mosque).
thank you, wa salaam,
Elise
Salaam 'aleikum,
I have "joined" Islam, so to say, about half a year ago. Now I want to wear proper hijab but am troubled at the same time... I have worn it a couple of times outdoors, and have no trouble with it. I get no strange looks where I live (Amsterdam is quite an open and accepting city), only sometimes the question why I chose Islam, but that doesn't bother me and I like telling people why, so that they can learn about Islam too. The only thing is... I still live with my mother and when she sees me with hijab she starts crying, sometimes quite heavily too. That hurts me so deeply inside. I cannot stand to see her cry and I try to explain and then she says she does accept it, but she still gets really upset. I cannot go out with her wearing hijab, and we go out together a lot; days out, shopping, weekends away, etc. A couple of times now I've worn hijab when she didn't know, I put it on when she had left or on the gallery of our flat. But it feels so hypocrite to wear hijab one day and not the next. I'm really troubled.... Should I continue wearing hijab like this untill she accepts, or wait with hijab altogether until she does so I can wear it fulltime? It feels even worse to sometimes wear it then to not wear it at all.....
Really need some advise from reverts who maybe went through the same, and I know it is only for Allah (swt) that I wear it, but my mother won't listen to an argument like that anyway...
Please help me I really don't know what to do (btw, I do, in any case, always wear hijab when I go to the mosque).
thank you, wa salaam,
Elise