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i hope u are all in best of health InshAllah,
some time ago, i posted a topic about waswasas i had, which were shoking and disturbing me, and i was very upset; everyone here tried to make me feel better by quoting hadith, articles, books, these waswasas started 8 months ago, when i decided to become a good muslim , i know in the beginning i was having them , because i was becoming good and sheytan didn't like that, but now it has been so much time, and day my day, my life has become so lifeless, and i think i'm in a stage now i need to perhaps see a psycologist , these waswasas are growing more and more and are a part of my life, i don't feel anymore like i 'm good i feel sheytan has become my intimate friend , and Allah SWT let him become my intimate friend due to my past sins, i feel beeing like a desperate fish out of the water, feeling so desperate inside and outside myself, i know whatever i keep secret in my heart Allah SWT Know it, everyday i pray i get some morals, i get good thoughts, but i can't help it anymore, i can't control it, i feel beeing different from everyone outside, i can't face ppl, Quran helps me , but as soon as i stop listenning to it, everything comes back it means i should listen to it 24/7 , plus even if keep saying i seek refuge from shytan nothing helps, when some day, for 2 or 3 hours i don't have any bad or obscene thought, i wish time could stop, and my heart , soul and brain are finally having some rest, i cry almost everyday, i know i'm talking here like a victim, i know if i have problems it's all dur to me, whatever bad happens to me is due to me, but i don't know how i can ask Allah SWT to forgive me, to cure me
please give me some practical advice
i really ask u
Jazak Allah in advance
i'm thinking to start tahajud at night, but during the week, i'm so tired due to uni, i think i should start with week ends first and ask for forgiveness
i hope u are all in best of health InshAllah,
some time ago, i posted a topic about waswasas i had, which were shoking and disturbing me, and i was very upset; everyone here tried to make me feel better by quoting hadith, articles, books, these waswasas started 8 months ago, when i decided to become a good muslim , i know in the beginning i was having them , because i was becoming good and sheytan didn't like that, but now it has been so much time, and day my day, my life has become so lifeless, and i think i'm in a stage now i need to perhaps see a psycologist , these waswasas are growing more and more and are a part of my life, i don't feel anymore like i 'm good i feel sheytan has become my intimate friend , and Allah SWT let him become my intimate friend due to my past sins, i feel beeing like a desperate fish out of the water, feeling so desperate inside and outside myself, i know whatever i keep secret in my heart Allah SWT Know it, everyday i pray i get some morals, i get good thoughts, but i can't help it anymore, i can't control it, i feel beeing different from everyone outside, i can't face ppl, Quran helps me , but as soon as i stop listenning to it, everything comes back it means i should listen to it 24/7 , plus even if keep saying i seek refuge from shytan nothing helps, when some day, for 2 or 3 hours i don't have any bad or obscene thought, i wish time could stop, and my heart , soul and brain are finally having some rest, i cry almost everyday, i know i'm talking here like a victim, i know if i have problems it's all dur to me, whatever bad happens to me is due to me, but i don't know how i can ask Allah SWT to forgive me, to cure me
please give me some practical advice
Jazak Allah in advance
i'm thinking to start tahajud at night, but during the week, i'm so tired due to uni, i think i should start with week ends first and ask for forgiveness
and no waaaaaaay are you disturbing me am your bajoo or no??? :tongue:
