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i hope u are all in best of health InshAllah,
some time ago, i posted a topic about waswasas i had, which were shoking and disturbing me, and i was very upset; everyone here tried to make me feel better by quoting hadith, articles, books, these waswasas started 8 months ago, when i decided to become a good muslim , i know in the beginning i was having them , because i was becoming good and sheytan didn't like that, but now it has been so much time, and day my day, my life has become so lifeless, and i think i'm in a stage now i need to perhaps see a psycologist , these waswasas are growing more and more and are a part of my life, i don't feel anymore like i 'm good i feel sheytan has become my intimate friend , and Allah SWT let him become my intimate friend due to my past sins, i feel beeing like a desperate fish out of the water, feeling so desperate inside and outside myself, i know whatever i keep secret in my heart Allah SWT Know it, everyday i pray i get some morals, i get good thoughts, but i can't help it anymore, i can't control it, i feel beeing different from everyone outside, i can't face ppl, Quran helps me , but as soon as i stop listenning to it, everything comes back it means i should listen to it 24/7 , plus even if keep saying i seek refuge from shytan nothing helps, when some day, for 2 or 3 hours i don't have any bad or obscene thought, i wish time could stop, and my heart , soul and brain are finally having some rest, i cry almost everyday, i know i'm talking here like a victim, i know if i have problems it's all dur to me, whatever bad happens to me is due to me, but i don't know how i can ask Allah SWT to forgive me, to cure me
please give me some practical advice i really ask u
Jazak Allah in advance
i'm thinking to start tahajud at night, but during the week, i'm so tired due to uni, i think i should start with week ends first and ask for forgiveness
i hope u are all in best of health InshAllah,
some time ago, i posted a topic about waswasas i had, which were shoking and disturbing me, and i was very upset; everyone here tried to make me feel better by quoting hadith, articles, books, these waswasas started 8 months ago, when i decided to become a good muslim , i know in the beginning i was having them , because i was becoming good and sheytan didn't like that, but now it has been so much time, and day my day, my life has become so lifeless, and i think i'm in a stage now i need to perhaps see a psycologist , these waswasas are growing more and more and are a part of my life, i don't feel anymore like i 'm good i feel sheytan has become my intimate friend , and Allah SWT let him become my intimate friend due to my past sins, i feel beeing like a desperate fish out of the water, feeling so desperate inside and outside myself, i know whatever i keep secret in my heart Allah SWT Know it, everyday i pray i get some morals, i get good thoughts, but i can't help it anymore, i can't control it, i feel beeing different from everyone outside, i can't face ppl, Quran helps me , but as soon as i stop listenning to it, everything comes back it means i should listen to it 24/7 , plus even if keep saying i seek refuge from shytan nothing helps, when some day, for 2 or 3 hours i don't have any bad or obscene thought, i wish time could stop, and my heart , soul and brain are finally having some rest, i cry almost everyday, i know i'm talking here like a victim, i know if i have problems it's all dur to me, whatever bad happens to me is due to me, but i don't know how i can ask Allah SWT to forgive me, to cure me
please give me some practical advice i really ask u
Jazak Allah in advance
i'm thinking to start tahajud at night, but during the week, i'm so tired due to uni, i think i should start with week ends first and ask for forgiveness