Looks like i'm very late innit!!
!sorry i was a lil busy....and MY ALLAH look at your wall.it's all filled up.where's my place
mash'Allah that's good news.hopefully he's even better now.and you too.i hope your MRI results are calming too.it's today right??MAy ALlah make things easy for you dear
about your email.firstly sis i'm not sure i'm the right person to ask as i have very small amount of knowledge.secondly,i'm not sure i'm at the liberty of judging you either.what's in your heart is what only you and Allah knows.so only He knows what's stopping you and which category you fall in.
so maybe the first one.not the heading,the explaintion
so i'm not sure.as i don't know about your faith state.
perhaps discuss it with someone with more knowledge.But why discuss it.just work on it and get done man
i'm all ears for the good news