AshamedlyDefiant
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I became a Muslim last year, but have since gone back to my old ways of hypocracy and defiance of what is clearly God's will for how I should live my life; I sin all the time again, I'm not doing my prayers, and I know that I'm trading something bad for something good. Even in the midst of a sin I know what I'm doing and how that defies God's will.
Of course, this all started very small - So let that be a warning to you. A very very little slip-up led to a very small mistake led to a sin etc etc. So if you value your Islam don't slip-up ;-p but anyway ... I'm in no position to lecture, clearly.
I don't want this to continue. I have concidered ending my life, but have decided that I would have 0 oppourtunity to get back to being a good person in God's eyes. Therefore I have to search out other ways that I can regain my Islam in a genuine and legitamate way, if possible. My Christian heritage tells me that I should repent, but then... that "religion" is so flawed, I'm sure there has to be more implications/consequences.
What say you?
I became a Muslim last year, but have since gone back to my old ways of hypocracy and defiance of what is clearly God's will for how I should live my life; I sin all the time again, I'm not doing my prayers, and I know that I'm trading something bad for something good. Even in the midst of a sin I know what I'm doing and how that defies God's will.
Of course, this all started very small - So let that be a warning to you. A very very little slip-up led to a very small mistake led to a sin etc etc. So if you value your Islam don't slip-up ;-p but anyway ... I'm in no position to lecture, clearly.
I don't want this to continue. I have concidered ending my life, but have decided that I would have 0 oppourtunity to get back to being a good person in God's eyes. Therefore I have to search out other ways that I can regain my Islam in a genuine and legitamate way, if possible. My Christian heritage tells me that I should repent, but then... that "religion" is so flawed, I'm sure there has to be more implications/consequences.
What say you?