Assalmu walaikum everyone. Before I start my story I would like to make it perfectly clear that my intentions are not to insult any persons’ religious beliefs, this was just my personal experience and the questions and answers I asked myself before reverting to Islam made sense to me, and to you be your way to me be mine.....
I’m from Trinidad, a Caribbean Island where there is a mix of different races and religions, Christianity, Hinduism and Islam being the major ones. My family members are Hindus, who are relatively strict in their beliefs, esp my father but from a young age I always liked to ask a lot of questions....Why this and why that and what reasoning is behind doing so and so? And I had a very difficult time understanding why we had to prostrate before something which can be physically touched or broken! So, I just didn’t really take on the teachings of Hinduism but I believed there was a God.
Oh, at 10 I remember hearing that in Islam you can have 12 wives and if you skipped a fast during Ramadhan to make one day up, you have to fast for 72 days (lol) Anyhow, even though I heard lots of silly things I still thought to myself...”WAW! Muslims have alot of dedication, even the young ones show such strong dedication and to boot, it’s a God they have no face for.” So, every time Ramadan came around I tried fasting a few days, to show some respect for Muslims and to see what they had to experience. So, I did fast but I always thought that Islam was too strict for me to become a Muslim.....
So, I wasn’t muslim, didn’t consider myself a Hindu but I was very accustomed to Christianity so I just prayed like a Christian. I believed Jesus (as) walked the earth and spread the word of God but I couldn’t understand the trinity, the fact that God and son is the same? Yet God is human? And has a mother? And Jesus (as) prayed and fasted to God?? These were the questions I asked myself and I knew that things didn’t add up....
So, remember earlier when I told you that during Ramadan I would fast to show respect for Muslims, well a year Ramadan came and once again my normal routine started and I tried to fast a bit and then I realised that I never read about Islam or why Muslims fast! Alhamudillah, I still remember that day till now.......I sat in front of my PC and typed Islam into google and during the first five or ten minutes of reading about this deen, I just sat and cried, my tears ran hot and it felt as if something had shaken my body and soul, everything seemed to make perfect sense. One of the questions I always asked was, “What is our purpose in life?” Quran51:56-“ I have not created you (man or jinn) for any other purpose to worship me Your Lord”......
In the beginning I said to myself that I would have waited till I could wear hijab then to convert but then I realised I did everything according to Islam and I had already taken my shahadah without stating the words.....Well my parents have not accepted my Islam,they know but choose to act as it doesn’t exist and that I may grow out of the phase but Alhamuillah, I accepted Islam when I was 15 and till this day, four years later that phase hasn’t left my side, and Insha Allah never will. My mother knows and accepts it a bit, but not my father, I still live with them and live like a typical Hindu life, going temple and so on....but I do say my Salat and I do believe that There is NO GOD BUT ALLAH and Muhammad Mustafa (saw) was His final Messenger....
Well folks that’s all for now, I know it’s a bit long, so srry...btw I’m a girl! Insha Allah this message will reach all in the best of health...Assalmu walaikum
I’m from Trinidad, a Caribbean Island where there is a mix of different races and religions, Christianity, Hinduism and Islam being the major ones. My family members are Hindus, who are relatively strict in their beliefs, esp my father but from a young age I always liked to ask a lot of questions....Why this and why that and what reasoning is behind doing so and so? And I had a very difficult time understanding why we had to prostrate before something which can be physically touched or broken! So, I just didn’t really take on the teachings of Hinduism but I believed there was a God.
Oh, at 10 I remember hearing that in Islam you can have 12 wives and if you skipped a fast during Ramadhan to make one day up, you have to fast for 72 days (lol) Anyhow, even though I heard lots of silly things I still thought to myself...”WAW! Muslims have alot of dedication, even the young ones show such strong dedication and to boot, it’s a God they have no face for.” So, every time Ramadan came around I tried fasting a few days, to show some respect for Muslims and to see what they had to experience. So, I did fast but I always thought that Islam was too strict for me to become a Muslim.....
So, I wasn’t muslim, didn’t consider myself a Hindu but I was very accustomed to Christianity so I just prayed like a Christian. I believed Jesus (as) walked the earth and spread the word of God but I couldn’t understand the trinity, the fact that God and son is the same? Yet God is human? And has a mother? And Jesus (as) prayed and fasted to God?? These were the questions I asked myself and I knew that things didn’t add up....
So, remember earlier when I told you that during Ramadan I would fast to show respect for Muslims, well a year Ramadan came and once again my normal routine started and I tried to fast a bit and then I realised that I never read about Islam or why Muslims fast! Alhamudillah, I still remember that day till now.......I sat in front of my PC and typed Islam into google and during the first five or ten minutes of reading about this deen, I just sat and cried, my tears ran hot and it felt as if something had shaken my body and soul, everything seemed to make perfect sense. One of the questions I always asked was, “What is our purpose in life?” Quran51:56-“ I have not created you (man or jinn) for any other purpose to worship me Your Lord”......
In the beginning I said to myself that I would have waited till I could wear hijab then to convert but then I realised I did everything according to Islam and I had already taken my shahadah without stating the words.....Well my parents have not accepted my Islam,they know but choose to act as it doesn’t exist and that I may grow out of the phase but Alhamuillah, I accepted Islam when I was 15 and till this day, four years later that phase hasn’t left my side, and Insha Allah never will. My mother knows and accepts it a bit, but not my father, I still live with them and live like a typical Hindu life, going temple and so on....but I do say my Salat and I do believe that There is NO GOD BUT ALLAH and Muhammad Mustafa (saw) was His final Messenger....
Well folks that’s all for now, I know it’s a bit long, so srry...btw I’m a girl! Insha Allah this message will reach all in the best of health...Assalmu walaikum
