ASSALAMU ALAIKUM brothers and sisters.
i reverted to islam 2 months ago, and since then i have had a lot of good moments and a lot of struggles.
but over the last couple of days i haven't felt like ive had a strong spiritual connection with allah (SWT).
im not sure how to explain it but like my taqwa or having a consciousness that allah (swt) is always watching me has been low or almost non-existent. even when im praying ive been trying to imagine that allah (swt) is watching me and that im communicating with him directly but i just dont feel like ive been making that connection. hence because i haven't had this taqwa ive found it harder to do the right thing and have been less inclined to do the right thing.
ive been trying to increase my taqwa (or get it back) by doing lots of dhikr, reading quran and making dua, but i still dont feel the same spiritual energy or taqwa as i did when i first became muslim. im not sure whether this is another test or what it is. or maybe ive just sort of become stale or reached a plateu spiritually.
if this had only lasted a day then i wouldnt be so worried because ive realised that you cant always be on a spiritual high 24/7 but its been going on for a few days now, almost a week, and its concerning me, i dont want to stray off the path to allah (SWT), and i want to have the same amount of taqwa as i did when i first became muslim or even the amount of taqwa i had a month ago.
what do you think?
thanks in advance
i reverted to islam 2 months ago, and since then i have had a lot of good moments and a lot of struggles.
but over the last couple of days i haven't felt like ive had a strong spiritual connection with allah (SWT).
im not sure how to explain it but like my taqwa or having a consciousness that allah (swt) is always watching me has been low or almost non-existent. even when im praying ive been trying to imagine that allah (swt) is watching me and that im communicating with him directly but i just dont feel like ive been making that connection. hence because i haven't had this taqwa ive found it harder to do the right thing and have been less inclined to do the right thing.
ive been trying to increase my taqwa (or get it back) by doing lots of dhikr, reading quran and making dua, but i still dont feel the same spiritual energy or taqwa as i did when i first became muslim. im not sure whether this is another test or what it is. or maybe ive just sort of become stale or reached a plateu spiritually.
if this had only lasted a day then i wouldnt be so worried because ive realised that you cant always be on a spiritual high 24/7 but its been going on for a few days now, almost a week, and its concerning me, i dont want to stray off the path to allah (SWT), and i want to have the same amount of taqwa as i did when i first became muslim or even the amount of taqwa i had a month ago.
what do you think?
thanks in advance