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Slave of Allah
Assalamu Alaykum
My blood is boiling while I'm typing this.
Why do I get so angry when I see pictures of Muslim[ah]s and crosses (suggesting that it's only a matter of time before Muslim[ah]s see "the truth")? Or why do I get so angry when I hear of Christian Missionaries converting some Muslim[ah]s to their false religion?
Why do I get so angry when people make fun of Allah (SWT), or the Prophet (Peace and blessings of Allah be upon them and their families)?
Why do I get angry in these situations? Whenever I see a Muslim[ah] and see crosses in the background, whenever I hear of Muslim[ah] converts to Christianity, whenever someone speaks a lie about Islam, whenever someone preaches against Islam, etc., I get angry.
Not angry in the sense that I want to kill all of the non-believers/people doing this stuff. Definatly not. But, I get so angry that I just want to debate until there's no end and shake a non-believer's faith (or make a secular person believe in Islam) so much that they'll go to bed crying.
Whenever I see a non-Muslim enter an Islamic chatroom, I rub my hands together as if plotting diabolically, I make Du'a to Allah (SWT) for me to guide this non-believer, and I "let the games begin". I feel a sense of comfort after I win these debates (Alhamdulillah, I haven't seemed to have lost one! The person I'm debating always leaves/doesn't answer back). I know that debating has no place in Islam, but, to be honest, I LOVE shaking someone's belief so much that they'll have no choice to come to Islam after a week of crying. Astaghfirullah.
I always talk with an Atheist friend about Christianity and we always share arguments (usually during Algebra Class).
What is this? Is this Shaytaan? I'm an early teenager yet I win debates against people up to 30 years of age; and they never know my age. If I told them, they wouldn't believe me! What is up with this? My intelligence in all levels of intelligence are average/a little above average and yet, in Spiritual Intelligence, I would have an I.Q. of 200!
I'm sorry for my little rant, but these questions have been bothering me forever. I started my spiritual journey at the age of 8! I could debate a person about my religion (back then Christianity) and win, at the age of 11! This is really beginning to freak me out, to be honest...
I began learning about Islam with this one question to a substitute teacher in September of 2001: "Who is the god of Islam?". The answer was: "Muhammad". I got angry at this, and I felt the same feeling as I felt now, except with Islam. I felt that I should rip the Muslim's faith to pieces and convert the whole world to Christianity. Now it's the same, except replace "Muslim's" with "Christian's" and "Christianity" with "Islam". Is this zeal for my religion from Allah, or Shaytaan?
My blood is boiling while I'm typing this.
Why do I get so angry when I see pictures of Muslim[ah]s and crosses (suggesting that it's only a matter of time before Muslim[ah]s see "the truth")? Or why do I get so angry when I hear of Christian Missionaries converting some Muslim[ah]s to their false religion?
Why do I get so angry when people make fun of Allah (SWT), or the Prophet
Why do I get angry in these situations? Whenever I see a Muslim[ah] and see crosses in the background, whenever I hear of Muslim[ah] converts to Christianity, whenever someone speaks a lie about Islam, whenever someone preaches against Islam, etc., I get angry.
Not angry in the sense that I want to kill all of the non-believers/people doing this stuff. Definatly not. But, I get so angry that I just want to debate until there's no end and shake a non-believer's faith (or make a secular person believe in Islam) so much that they'll go to bed crying.
Whenever I see a non-Muslim enter an Islamic chatroom, I rub my hands together as if plotting diabolically, I make Du'a to Allah (SWT) for me to guide this non-believer, and I "let the games begin". I feel a sense of comfort after I win these debates (Alhamdulillah, I haven't seemed to have lost one! The person I'm debating always leaves/doesn't answer back). I know that debating has no place in Islam, but, to be honest, I LOVE shaking someone's belief so much that they'll have no choice to come to Islam after a week of crying. Astaghfirullah.
I always talk with an Atheist friend about Christianity and we always share arguments (usually during Algebra Class).
What is this? Is this Shaytaan? I'm an early teenager yet I win debates against people up to 30 years of age; and they never know my age. If I told them, they wouldn't believe me! What is up with this? My intelligence in all levels of intelligence are average/a little above average and yet, in Spiritual Intelligence, I would have an I.Q. of 200!
I'm sorry for my little rant, but these questions have been bothering me forever. I started my spiritual journey at the age of 8! I could debate a person about my religion (back then Christianity) and win, at the age of 11! This is really beginning to freak me out, to be honest...
I began learning about Islam with this one question to a substitute teacher in September of 2001: "Who is the god of Islam?". The answer was: "Muhammad". I got angry at this, and I felt the same feeling as I felt now, except with Islam. I felt that I should rip the Muslim's faith to pieces and convert the whole world to Christianity. Now it's the same, except replace "Muslim's" with "Christian's" and "Christianity" with "Islam". Is this zeal for my religion from Allah, or Shaytaan?