:salam2:
I feel the same way. I'm really glad you asked, even if I'd prefer you didn't feel that way at all.
"Laa ilaha ila Anta Subhaanaka Ini Kuntu Mina dhaalimiiyn"
say AlhamduliLaah
you are alive...and on this life is the only chance, here on earth.
if i may take u to a little deeper (thinking) reasons when he (Prophet 'who was swallowed by the fish')
was forgiven Soon he realized his error?
of course
Take that and be mindful that ina HU HUWA LGHAFUURUN RAHIYYM