salam sister,thank for you post.it's long time I don't write here,I know it.to be honest I had a bad moment and really had no desire to move a finger.I don't know how to explain it,and there is nobody to whom confess my sensations...on these last days I felt something coming into my head and making me do what it wanted.I wish to speak to a doctor but I have no time for an appointment.I felt like an alien on the earth,it was like a dream.it's really sad because my mental desease in increasing.I'm doubting that I'm ill of bipolarism.it's a mixture of depression and anger.but deep in y heart I feel good.I hope you can give me some advice.