Hello!
Dear Madam,
TRUTH is the most important thing in the world that you are seeking for. To find truth we should make efforts and never feel afraid or shy. And remember to find the truth is to find happiness. Is there anyone in the world does not want happiness?! Everyone in the world, of course, seeks for happiness, but NOT everyone finds the way takes us to the real happiness.
I am hopeful you will reach the truth as soon as possible, for God guides those who are seeking for truth.
Do not be hesitant, get ready and ask God to guide to the truth, ask him within your heart, and be as prepared as someone who is going to make the most important decision in his/her life. Do not forget, to seek for truth requires you have a very good INTENTION that you do not want just to live, but you want to know the philosophy of life, in other words, you think, understand, and have wisdom, and do not want to just spend day with no goal or aim. Sometimes one finds truth, but it is opposite to some of his valuse and priciples in his life. So, one who is in search of truth should be able to sacrifice less or more, and he/she will oneday realize how truth important is, that is greater than any kinds of sacrifice. Hence, you never regret whatever you have done for finding the truth. When you find the truth, you see you have got so many important thing that you did not even realise that you would be in need of them, or they would bring you happiness. Moreover, truth helps you get rid of doubtness, that you always feel happy and comfort after you have found the truth.
Then you can go to a mosque close to you, it is better to have a muslim friend with you if you have nay. If not, it is just easy. Do not worry about language barriers, in all the mosques in the West there are Musliam who can speak English fluently. Do not afraid at all, they are very friendly and paitient with eveyone. Ask what whatever question you may have.
I wish you sucess in your efforts to find the truth
Rawa
Liverpool, UK