:salam2: brother and sisters
I've been a bit stressed with this one issue..
I work in retail..and I have been considering quitting the job..
the reason for that is..at the work environment I get exposed to things that make me fear for my Iman and my character as a Muslimah..when I am outside of work I feel that my Iman heightens and becomes strong but then come the weekend (that's the only time I work there) I feel like my Iman is being drained away and I feel this guilt when I'm there..I am lucky enough to have an all woman crew at the department I work in..but many times I have male customers and while handing them cash or giving them their items they touch my hand..it's accidental of course..but it makes me conscious of whether or not my wudhu' (ablution) is invalidated..so I can't even read the Qura'an while I'm there (which I do to make up for not being able to pray there)..
so it just gets frustrating..especially because I have been trying to eliminate the haram out of my life one thing at a time..and alhamduliallah..Allah (swt) had been so generous in granting me strength and getting me through my issues and my weaknesses
but..the one thing that had been stopping me is the following..
it's obvious that I work to support myself (somewhat) financially..as in pay for my own shopping sprees..my own food..school supplies..other fees..and what not
if I stop working that means that I will have to ask my father to pay for these expenses..he already pays for most things (alhamduliallah..and I can't thank him enough for it)..but I'm afraid that if I quit..then I would cause a bit of a burden on him financially as our income is fixed and budgeted
I told a friend of mine about it..she said that I shouldn't think that way..because my father wouldn't think of it this way..and in a way I will be "earning" the money because I take care of the house and my sister (who has down syndrome..and has special needs) practically all week because my brothers are all younger (and can't be depended on)..my mom works..and my father has heart disease so he is limited in what he can do physically..
but at the same time..Iman is precious..and having a sound character..is just as precious..and I fear for these two things very much..alhamduliallah I have not done anything horrible..but I don't want something to happen and then begin to think *oh! I should have done this or done that!*..also..the nafs is weak..and shaytan never leaves an opportunity to make you fall into the pits of wrong-doing!..I seek refuge with Allah (swt) from him!..and this dunya is just a transit to one that is better..and I want to make the next one a happy one with good conduct and strong iman..inshallah..with Allah's permission..power..and mercy!
so I don't know..I just thought I should talk about this here..as most of you won't take sides..and will be most likely neutral in telling me what they think is right for me to do..which I think would be the best thing to help me decide..I also plan on praying Istikharah..but I have to make the decision by this friday..so I don't know..I'm just so confused..as most of you can tell by now
baraka allaho feekom for all and any advice from each of you
I've been a bit stressed with this one issue..
I work in retail..and I have been considering quitting the job..
the reason for that is..at the work environment I get exposed to things that make me fear for my Iman and my character as a Muslimah..when I am outside of work I feel that my Iman heightens and becomes strong but then come the weekend (that's the only time I work there) I feel like my Iman is being drained away and I feel this guilt when I'm there..I am lucky enough to have an all woman crew at the department I work in..but many times I have male customers and while handing them cash or giving them their items they touch my hand..it's accidental of course..but it makes me conscious of whether or not my wudhu' (ablution) is invalidated..so I can't even read the Qura'an while I'm there (which I do to make up for not being able to pray there)..
so it just gets frustrating..especially because I have been trying to eliminate the haram out of my life one thing at a time..and alhamduliallah..Allah (swt) had been so generous in granting me strength and getting me through my issues and my weaknesses
but..the one thing that had been stopping me is the following..
it's obvious that I work to support myself (somewhat) financially..as in pay for my own shopping sprees..my own food..school supplies..other fees..and what not
if I stop working that means that I will have to ask my father to pay for these expenses..he already pays for most things (alhamduliallah..and I can't thank him enough for it)..but I'm afraid that if I quit..then I would cause a bit of a burden on him financially as our income is fixed and budgeted
I told a friend of mine about it..she said that I shouldn't think that way..because my father wouldn't think of it this way..and in a way I will be "earning" the money because I take care of the house and my sister (who has down syndrome..and has special needs) practically all week because my brothers are all younger (and can't be depended on)..my mom works..and my father has heart disease so he is limited in what he can do physically..
but at the same time..Iman is precious..and having a sound character..is just as precious..and I fear for these two things very much..alhamduliallah I have not done anything horrible..but I don't want something to happen and then begin to think *oh! I should have done this or done that!*..also..the nafs is weak..and shaytan never leaves an opportunity to make you fall into the pits of wrong-doing!..I seek refuge with Allah (swt) from him!..and this dunya is just a transit to one that is better..and I want to make the next one a happy one with good conduct and strong iman..inshallah..with Allah's permission..power..and mercy!
so I don't know..I just thought I should talk about this here..as most of you won't take sides..and will be most likely neutral in telling me what they think is right for me to do..which I think would be the best thing to help me decide..I also plan on praying Istikharah..but I have to make the decision by this friday..so I don't know..I'm just so confused..as most of you can tell by now
baraka allaho feekom for all and any advice from each of you