Salaam Alaikum,
well brother newlight----- converting to another religion is a big big decision...and people take BIG decisions only after thinking hard about all aspects of it.
i myself(being a born muslim) respect the converts alot. i feel they are the most courageous and thinking people because converting really involves lot of thinking and being patient about everything that comes after it.
didnt u know what ISLAM is before converting??
didnt u know that shaitan is the biggest enemy of ISLAM??
didnt u know the five pillars of ISLAM??
i mean, there must have been something in your heart that brought you in the shade of ISLAM. no doubt, it was ALLAH(SWT) who made your heart incline towards HIS religion which is, definitely, the only way of life!
it's not a play thing that u change ur religion whenever u feel like it...as long as u r a muslim, u r our brother & it's our duty to advice each other sincerely.
nobody said "life is a bed of roses". life is journey with good and bad times. you were intelligent enough to choose islam as the deen, you want to live with. now, if u leave islam, ur heart will definitely witness against u! don't be among the wrongdoers, my brother. accepting islam and then rejecting it will be a BIG BIG WRONG u'll be doing to yourself.
we, as brothers & sisters, are only advicing you, we are not compelling you--
ALLAH says:
"Let there be no compulsion in religion: Truth stands out from error: whoever rejects evil and believes in ALLAH has grasped the most trustworthy hand-hold, that never breaks. And ALLAH hears and knows all things." S 2: V 256
"Say, 'the truth is from your Lord':Let him who will believe, and let him who will reject(it): for the wrong-doers have we prepared a fire whose (smoke and flames), like the walls and roof of a tent, will hem them in: if they implore relief they will be granted water like melted brass, that will scald their faces, how dreadful the drink! How uncomfortable a couch to recline on!" S 18: V 29
"We test you by evil and by good by way of trial. To Us must you return" S 21: V 35
this could just be a trial, so brother be firm and steadfast, for you are on the Right Path.
don't let the shaitan take over your heart and mind. he is indeed our biggest enemy. All people in this world have their own share of problems and tensions(no matter which religion they believe in), but patience and perseverence should be the biggest asset after knowing that one is on the Straight Path.
you must atleast once, with an open mind, read the Holy Qur'an comepletely with translation in the language you understand best... you'll, for sure, know why ISLAM is the only way of life, why ALLAH is the ONLY GOD and why you should be following and obeying the Messenger of ALLAH, Muhammad( May ALLAH's peace and blessings be upon him)! don't leave Islam before reading the Qur'an with translation.
ALLAH knows best and whatever HE has willed will definitely happen!!!!!
May ALLAH obliterate every evil thought from our minds and hearts.
May ALLAH give you peace of mind & keep you firm on the right path!!!!