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I'm not what you believe
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I thank brother Shaheerpak and brother Peace2you for their posts.I started this thread to make you clearer my situation about my experience about Jinn.I'm not an opened book to everyone,but I trust on TTi and on your discretion.
I listened to that Rukya,thanks,but I don't know if I can do it now cause I delivered 18 days ago and not have a good and clean health.
I told that I need an Imam or someone who is strong to tolerate what it may passes on me if I really make what brother Shaheerpak said in the other thread.I explain you why.
My"adventure" began when I was a child;my father started by telling me that I was generated by the union of my mother and him,but I wasn't a terrestrial creature,he told me that I came from one part of the universe and he was the only one who could educate me and make me "pay" for my disobedience to the "Great Creator"(which wasn't ALLAH Subhana Huwa Ta'ala).
my childhood was full of sad moments,I often cried for the physical and psycological pain that he mad to me,when I was 8 years he told me that I had a sister,who died because of an accident when she was only 1 month and a half(as he said).He always talked to me about the universe and about some creatures which lived in it.I didn't care at first,but I started to see something that scared me,I was afraid from my father,but in the same time I needed his help,till the day I finally grew up and felt little freer to think,even if he used to curse me and offend me just to exist.I don't know why he decided to make a family,cause nowdays it's destroyed:my youngest brother of 22 years,smokes and spends his time to disco and in internet,and my dearest brother who suffered with me the same pain(he's 23 yars old)has no faculty to decide what he wishes:many times I asked him if he wants a mobile phone to communicate with me,and he always turned his sight like to ask the permission to my mum,cause she talks to his place.I'm so sad for the actual situation...
but let's start from zero.The day before leaving my home,on 30/07 2006,my father told me this curse<One day you'll need me and I will be waiting for you in shape of the Death>.I didn't take care of that and left my family.the first time I went to Morocco to know my husband's family,I was surprised by their simplicity and everyone was happy to have me like the wife of a Maroccan man,cause everyone who saw me,told that there was the NUR in my face.but three days before getting married,on 2nd september 2006 I had a delyrium and it was said me that when I was possessed my physical sthrenght was so big that neither 4 muscled men could stop me by biting,kicking and pounching,I was furious.before knowing Islam I was 100% misbeliever,so I didn't believe to a better destiny cause only my father could help me at that time,but whe Imam asked if I was muslima,my husband told him <yes>(I reverted on august 2006,took shahada,but I was unsure).he tighted me and read Quran till I screamed by he burning on my body(it was the Jinn,but that was me who suffered the consequences).Everything passed,I got married and we returned to Italy to work.some months later Jinn started to disturb me again,I was afraid because I was alone at home.My husband is the witness of what had passed between 2007 and 2009,sometimes Jinnia came into my body to "sleep" with my husband .I knew that an evil didn't want me to be married to my husband,but we didn't know why.I prayd till the last moment,but when I fainted up on my SALLAYA,I was really afraid,because my husband often left his job because he saw that I didn't answer to the phone calls.
My father never knew and doesn't still know about my situation.
The only one time I told him that I felt weak,he said me that my time was coming and I had to live alone my husband to complete my course.I trusted only to my husband,cause we knew about Jinn and when the 2nd time we went to Morocco we talked to an Imam about my problem:he just read some Ayats and everything seemed to be better.In the meantime I delivered my first daughter;after 4 months I was pregnant again.we had lots of disputes because of shayatin.My body was at the total disposition of them,I started to hate my daugher,my husband and was lazy with the prayers.I delivered my second daughter and after 2 months we went to Morocco for the 3rd time to make our daughers know their maroccan family and to find a solution to my problem.I discovered to be pregnant again and was really happy,but behind my happiness it was hidden something bad.I had bad dreams about my son,had terrible disputes,till one day my husband told in front of his mother and brother that he wanted to leave me,because he thought I was a crazy lyier and was mocking of them all.his brother understood I was really ill.I was in tears when I told to his brother that i saw what humans couldn't see,I was afraid and firmly convinced to go away because I only gave ashame to my husband's family,but he trusted on me and commanded my husband to be patience till the day we might find a stronger Imam(the other one who helped me on 2007 is died Allah Irhamu).
we found a stronger Imam and from half september 2009 till half october we discoverd all the truth.
I had more than 20 Jinn mocking of my life,when the Imam read the Quran with his voice,I felt burning,I laughed,I bit,I screamed,but that Imam didn't fear Jinn,so he built a whisp of plastic and obliged them to talk by hurting my body with the intention to make them confess.most of them asked forgiveness for the bad moments they made me to pass,and most of them became muslims.it was told me that lots of Jinns were sent from my father's Jinn(he's possessd too but he's very strong)to make me hate my family and get married to a Jinn.we discovered how really died my sister(she was killed)and we knew the names of those Jinn and Jinnias which "abused" of me.
when everything seemed to be ok,the last Jinn came the day of by birhtday,on 16th october:I thought that someone kidnapped my dautghter and lose my memory for 7 days.My husband fell into crisis by seeing me that I didn't remember neither my daughters,nor the Imam who helped me,not even my relatives.I was like a vegetable.I had strong headaches and felt crazy.My husband had trust on one good elder Jinn who reverted to Islam,and when he read me the Quran he called him:when this good Jinn arrived it told my husband that I have a desease in my head and that all the shayatin which entered in my body,caused problems to myself and might compromize the health of my son,but it also said that there were a male Jinn in my head which forbade me to remember.my husband talked with that creature and asked him why he cam to his wife.he answered<She is 25 years old and my mother the queen promised her to me>.Brothers and sisters in Islam,what do you think now about me?Am I crazy?
After some minutes that Jinn realized that it was in the wrong place and at the same moment he left my body,I woke up and recognized my husband,who cried for the happiness and told me to go and wake up his brother,who cried for me everyday.
Nowdays,after the deliver of my son,we really discovered that my son has been infected by CMV,he risks to die in his first year of life(I look at him and hope Allah will not bring him away).I'm still disturbed by Jinn,because my father doesn't accept I am muslima and pray Allah,I suppose he's jealouse of my happiness,that's why in these days I alternated moments of light with moments of darkness.
I can see the face of the creature that makes me have bad minutes,and when it comes into me,it's too late to stop it,I'm worried,I can't do Ruqya alone,because first of all when I read Quran I feel sleep,and second thing,I may faint up and when this Jinn overcomes to me it may do something bad to my children.I'm carrying on with my all strenght just for my children and I don't give up,but I hope this stenght will help me till the day I'll be free.I suppose that none can do Ruqya from TTI,isn't it?
Obviously I want to die Shahida and never give won to shaytan,even I'll die crazy.I had many dreams in my past,but now there is this evil which makes me everything harder.:shymuslima1:
I thank brother Shaheerpak and brother Peace2you for their posts.I started this thread to make you clearer my situation about my experience about Jinn.I'm not an opened book to everyone,but I trust on TTi and on your discretion.
I listened to that Rukya,thanks,but I don't know if I can do it now cause I delivered 18 days ago and not have a good and clean health.
I told that I need an Imam or someone who is strong to tolerate what it may passes on me if I really make what brother Shaheerpak said in the other thread.I explain you why.
My"adventure" began when I was a child;my father started by telling me that I was generated by the union of my mother and him,but I wasn't a terrestrial creature,he told me that I came from one part of the universe and he was the only one who could educate me and make me "pay" for my disobedience to the "Great Creator"(which wasn't ALLAH Subhana Huwa Ta'ala).
my childhood was full of sad moments,I often cried for the physical and psycological pain that he mad to me,when I was 8 years he told me that I had a sister,who died because of an accident when she was only 1 month and a half(as he said).He always talked to me about the universe and about some creatures which lived in it.I didn't care at first,but I started to see something that scared me,I was afraid from my father,but in the same time I needed his help,till the day I finally grew up and felt little freer to think,even if he used to curse me and offend me just to exist.I don't know why he decided to make a family,cause nowdays it's destroyed:my youngest brother of 22 years,smokes and spends his time to disco and in internet,and my dearest brother who suffered with me the same pain(he's 23 yars old)has no faculty to decide what he wishes:many times I asked him if he wants a mobile phone to communicate with me,and he always turned his sight like to ask the permission to my mum,cause she talks to his place.I'm so sad for the actual situation...
but let's start from zero.The day before leaving my home,on 30/07 2006,my father told me this curse<One day you'll need me and I will be waiting for you in shape of the Death>.I didn't take care of that and left my family.the first time I went to Morocco to know my husband's family,I was surprised by their simplicity and everyone was happy to have me like the wife of a Maroccan man,cause everyone who saw me,told that there was the NUR in my face.but three days before getting married,on 2nd september 2006 I had a delyrium and it was said me that when I was possessed my physical sthrenght was so big that neither 4 muscled men could stop me by biting,kicking and pounching,I was furious.before knowing Islam I was 100% misbeliever,so I didn't believe to a better destiny cause only my father could help me at that time,but whe Imam asked if I was muslima,my husband told him <yes>(I reverted on august 2006,took shahada,but I was unsure).he tighted me and read Quran till I screamed by he burning on my body(it was the Jinn,but that was me who suffered the consequences).Everything passed,I got married and we returned to Italy to work.some months later Jinn started to disturb me again,I was afraid because I was alone at home.My husband is the witness of what had passed between 2007 and 2009,sometimes Jinnia came into my body to "sleep" with my husband .I knew that an evil didn't want me to be married to my husband,but we didn't know why.I prayd till the last moment,but when I fainted up on my SALLAYA,I was really afraid,because my husband often left his job because he saw that I didn't answer to the phone calls.
My father never knew and doesn't still know about my situation.
The only one time I told him that I felt weak,he said me that my time was coming and I had to live alone my husband to complete my course.I trusted only to my husband,cause we knew about Jinn and when the 2nd time we went to Morocco we talked to an Imam about my problem:he just read some Ayats and everything seemed to be better.In the meantime I delivered my first daughter;after 4 months I was pregnant again.we had lots of disputes because of shayatin.My body was at the total disposition of them,I started to hate my daugher,my husband and was lazy with the prayers.I delivered my second daughter and after 2 months we went to Morocco for the 3rd time to make our daughers know their maroccan family and to find a solution to my problem.I discovered to be pregnant again and was really happy,but behind my happiness it was hidden something bad.I had bad dreams about my son,had terrible disputes,till one day my husband told in front of his mother and brother that he wanted to leave me,because he thought I was a crazy lyier and was mocking of them all.his brother understood I was really ill.I was in tears when I told to his brother that i saw what humans couldn't see,I was afraid and firmly convinced to go away because I only gave ashame to my husband's family,but he trusted on me and commanded my husband to be patience till the day we might find a stronger Imam(the other one who helped me on 2007 is died Allah Irhamu).
we found a stronger Imam and from half september 2009 till half october we discoverd all the truth.
I had more than 20 Jinn mocking of my life,when the Imam read the Quran with his voice,I felt burning,I laughed,I bit,I screamed,but that Imam didn't fear Jinn,so he built a whisp of plastic and obliged them to talk by hurting my body with the intention to make them confess.most of them asked forgiveness for the bad moments they made me to pass,and most of them became muslims.it was told me that lots of Jinns were sent from my father's Jinn(he's possessd too but he's very strong)to make me hate my family and get married to a Jinn.we discovered how really died my sister(she was killed)and we knew the names of those Jinn and Jinnias which "abused" of me.
when everything seemed to be ok,the last Jinn came the day of by birhtday,on 16th october:I thought that someone kidnapped my dautghter and lose my memory for 7 days.My husband fell into crisis by seeing me that I didn't remember neither my daughters,nor the Imam who helped me,not even my relatives.I was like a vegetable.I had strong headaches and felt crazy.My husband had trust on one good elder Jinn who reverted to Islam,and when he read me the Quran he called him:when this good Jinn arrived it told my husband that I have a desease in my head and that all the shayatin which entered in my body,caused problems to myself and might compromize the health of my son,but it also said that there were a male Jinn in my head which forbade me to remember.my husband talked with that creature and asked him why he cam to his wife.he answered<She is 25 years old and my mother the queen promised her to me>.Brothers and sisters in Islam,what do you think now about me?Am I crazy?
After some minutes that Jinn realized that it was in the wrong place and at the same moment he left my body,I woke up and recognized my husband,who cried for the happiness and told me to go and wake up his brother,who cried for me everyday.
Nowdays,after the deliver of my son,we really discovered that my son has been infected by CMV,he risks to die in his first year of life(I look at him and hope Allah will not bring him away).I'm still disturbed by Jinn,because my father doesn't accept I am muslima and pray Allah,I suppose he's jealouse of my happiness,that's why in these days I alternated moments of light with moments of darkness.
I can see the face of the creature that makes me have bad minutes,and when it comes into me,it's too late to stop it,I'm worried,I can't do Ruqya alone,because first of all when I read Quran I feel sleep,and second thing,I may faint up and when this Jinn overcomes to me it may do something bad to my children.I'm carrying on with my all strenght just for my children and I don't give up,but I hope this stenght will help me till the day I'll be free.I suppose that none can do Ruqya from TTI,isn't it?
Obviously I want to die Shahida and never give won to shaytan,even I'll die crazy.I had many dreams in my past,but now there is this evil which makes me everything harder.:shymuslima1: