assalamy aleikym brothers and sisters.
My name is Anastasia. I'm from Russia, Moscow, but new name of islam i can't choose now. I want to share my story with us.
I registred Islam for 2-3 weeks ago.
All began so: in winter i have got acquainted with my future husband (we made "islam married", but my parents to this day don't know about this). he also russian man. But after some days he said that he is muslim. I have listened to this story with patience, for me was habitual to communicate with muslims as I was born in Kazakhstan, but to accept an islam I did not wish. I'm so fear of many questions: How it will be?, What i should do?, How i can told it to my parents? etc... BUT the major moment in my life was a trip to one Muslim city to Russia where I have seen women in hijab, have seen trusteeship of muslim above their family, have seen many plus of Islam. When i arrived to Moscow, during a month I have accepted an Islam. I with pleasure read the Koran (in Russian), I start to study the Arabian language.
But also i met with the firs difficults in my way of the Tru Religion of Allah.
Firs of all, How to tell all to parents??? In my family i have one mum and it's so complex here so to say all at the momet. But the Allah has helped me, has given boldness. Mum, till now cannot accept my belief.
After I had
one more difficulty, besides my religion husband, I in Moscow do not have more anybody with whom I could share the Islam. All those from my friends skeptically concern to the Islam. And I have solved incorrect to remove from a new life.
Also the GREATEST my DIFFICULTY is hijab! Now I cannot dress it. I struggle with it every day. I search for shops of Islamic clothes, I look video in Internet about hijab. Sisters please, help. I want to wear Hijab, but on the other hand, i cannot.Many reasons stop me. And when I see sisters in hijab in streets of Moscow, heart fades with humility to the Allah.
Bismillah.
* Sorry for my english please. If u see a mistake correct me please.