Tempted to leave Islam

[DanyalSAC]

...I am not saying I am GOING to leave (yet), just that I am TEMPTED to.

I love Allah. I love our Prophet peace be upon him. I am just tired of the struggle. Life is a struggle either way you go, and this I am fully aware. But if you remember my loooong post a while ago talking about what brought me to Islam you know how much of a struggle it has been for me.

This weekend my masjid hosted a Bayyinah class for Friday evening then all day Saturday and Sunday. Due to finances and the fact I work on Sundays I was unable to attend the class. Late Friday night, one of the attendees IMs me and says "The Bayyinah shaykh has said not to let finances get in your way of learning, if someone is not attending because they can't afford it they can still come in for the rest of the weekend". Well since I didn't know about this until after the end of the first day of the class I was STILL unable to attend, and besides I work on Sunday so the only day I could attend would've been Saturday. And what's the point of taking one day of a three day class?

Well, during salat yesterday I was met by angry glares and some not so friendly accusational tones of: "Where were you? Why weren't you here? The class is free so why aren't you taking it?" I almost snapped. The straw just about broke the camel's back. I started resenting the fact that my "brothers" felt that my "excuses" were not "good enough" when NONE of them have the right to make me feel like that. I feel like the Ummah is a far harsher judge on me than Allah is!! At least HE knows what I'm struggling with!

Anyway - I find my life has taken on far more of a burden since I became Muslim than ever before. The peace I found in Islam when I first made my shahadah has slowly eroded. I find my salat has become nothing more than a habit, with very little actual prayer involved. I have no guidance - I've asked 2 of the shuyuk there at my masjid if they had time to talk to me and both said "yes" but they both vanish as soon after the sunnah as they can. I thought my first Ramadan would boost my faith and make it stronger like it does for others. But for me it didn't.

So anyway. I just needed to vent that and the few folks I know online (including on this site) seem to be the only ones in the Ummah who care to listen.

Asalaamu alaikum.

 

[ahmed_indian]

:salam2:,

well..if u became muslim for ppl, then u can leave islam as they are not giving attention to you.

but if u accepted Islam for Allah's sake...then nothing should make u leave it. bcoz when u remember Allah, Allah remembers u.

prophet companions were tortured, abused, slandered...but they did not give up. they knew its a test to enter paradise.

they knew they cant bear pain in hell and longed for the eternal pleasures of paradise.

Allah guided u to islam and shaitan wants u to leave it....lets see whom u listen to! but remember Whose created u and Who protects you and to Whom u'll go after death.

 

[DanyalSAC]

:salam2:,

well..if u became muslim for ppl, then u can leave islam as they are not giving attention to you.

but if u accepted Islam for Allah's sake...then nothing should make u leave it. bcoz when u remember Allah, Allah remembers u.

prophet companions were tortured, abused, slandered...but they did not give up. they knew its a test to enter paradise.

they knew they cant bear pain in hell and longed for the eternal pleasures of paradise.

Allah guided u to islam and shaitan wants u to leave it....lets see whom u listen to! but remember Whose created u and Who protects you and to Whom u'll go after death.

As I've said over and over again I am not in it for the Ummah.

 

[podolski11]

salam alaykum

u have the most nosey friends in ur masjid........like shouldnt they mind their own business????........angry glares?? .like if ud like committed a crime or something then id understand but jz bcause u didnt attend a class???.....like these guys must think they r really pious or something that they can jz put their glares on some1 1st rather than listen to the other side of the story....

 

[um_mustafa]

Salams Brother ,
we all get our ups and downs, and life these days for all of us, is very trying as that is the times we are living in, a lot of bad things happening around the world, injustic, wars etc very depressing, but inshallah Allah ta'laa has given all of us a very valuble gift which we have to hold on to with both hands. That is the gift of Islam,
I am afriad our brothers and sisters are hard sometimes judging us with out understanding our situation.
But alhmdulilah Allah ta'laa knows every thing and as long as we rely on Him he will not let us down, just put all of your trust in Him and inshallah after every hardship there is ease,
take care brother,
w/salam

 

[ahmed_indian]

As I've said over and over again I am not in it for the Ummah.

if u r not in for the ummah, then brother why do u worry about ummah's attitude.

they are here with u until u go back to ur Lord. only ur deeds will be with u on Day of Judgment.

neither me nor anyone who abuse u. try to overlook and forgive them. did u know akhi that Musa (as) ppl were very troublesome towards him. yet he bore with them patiently.

 

[DanyalSAC]

salam alaykum

u have the most nosey friends in ur masjid........like shouldnt they mind their own business????........angry glares?? .like if ud like committed a crime or something then id understand but jz bcause u didnt attend a class???.....like these guys must think they r really pious or something that they can jz put their glares on some1 1st rather than listen to the other side of the story....

You hit the nail RIGHT on the head there brother - my masjid is full of what we call the "haram police" (or "halal police" either way). They're like nosey old women peeking into people's windows at night to find their secrets. You realize I rarely discuss my day (what I ate, who I hung out with, what I watched on TV) with any of them because it turns into a "that's HARAM!!!!" debate and frankly, I'm beyond it any more.

I do my salat at home even though I'm less than half a mile from the masjid because its just too annoying!

 

[revert2007]

This is for u then

GIVE UP ISLAM​

 

[IHearIslam]

Assalamu Alaikum my brother Danyal!!

my Allah ease your pain!! ameen
life is like this brother, and Allah must LOVE you so much for testing you and putting you into hardship!!
I dont understand the problem with the Ummah? why treat a person whom you have no idea his problems like this? AlhamduliAllah you're not in IT for the Ummah!! may Allah guide them all !ameen
and what kind of brotherhood does that show? what's wrong with Muslims today? why are we not accting like the sahabah? and our beloved prophet SalaAllahu Alahi wassalam? this is sick for real!!! Ya rab guide us all, make us those who love eachother and treat each other good!ameen
brother I dont know what to say, but I am glad you're venting here for if you hold this anger inside........you'll explode! so always share with us, maybe our posts can give you hope! remember Allah is there even when the world walks out on you!
" life is not always like a fairytail..........it's full of ups and downs, frastrations and sadness, but with Allah you'll always be the smilling kind" may Allah give you the strength to carry on, may Allah give you the ability to smile in times of adversity, may Allah make you among the pious, may Allah ease your pain! o0h ya Allah, the Lord of the universe, you dont burden a soul more than it cannot bear, I ask you o Allah to make things easy for my brother Danyal, to forgive him and to strengthen his imaan. O Allah unite the Ummah and make us believers who enjoin good and forbide bad, make us those who support one another, lets be the Ummah who follow the footsteps of our beloved prophet SAW and His compinoins! ya Allah we praise you and thank for the good and the bad you have given us for we know we're here to be tested! ya Allah you'r the most kind, the ever lasting, help us all !ameen,ameen,ameen
we praise you and we send our blessings to Muhammed sala Allahu alhi wassalam, his companions, and the tabi3een!!
" Allah is with the patient!"

 

[podolski11]

You hit the nail RIGHT on the head there brother - my masjid is full of what we call the "haram police" (or "halal police" either way). They're like nosey old women peeking into people's windows at night to find their secrets. You realize I rarely discuss my day (what I ate, who I hung out with, what I watched on TV) with any of them because it turns into a "that's HARAM!!!!" debate and frankly, I'm beyond it any more.

I do my salat at home even though I'm less than half a mile from the masjid because its just too annoying!

although i dont like hitting nails in the head but well once in a while... :lol:

LLOOOOOLLLLL..............*women peeking into other people windows*- i wouldnt b surprised if they were pakistani women ( no offence to pakistani women but u know im rite on this)................

its a good thing i dont socialise that much with the people in the masjid i go to or theyll start saying stuff like * u got a beard but why dont u come to the masjid 5 times a day?*..........

 

[ShyHijabi]

Ya know, Ghandi had a saying, "I like your Christ, I don't like your Christians so much." I think this can be applied to all religions and their followers. (the followers can spoil the water) Nothing can make you feel worse than people who are supposed to be your brothers in Islam speaking to you like you're a dog.

I am sorry they are treating you this way, their thoughtless words and nasty attitudes are causing fitnah. Know that you are loved by Allah swt, brother. KNow that this ummah has been made stronger and better by you joining it. I think all converts deal with this sometimes, and maybe even raised Muslims. I've been treated poorly before and questioned about my dress code. (this was before I had any money to buy abayas and such) So I wore loose fitting clothing and STILL someone had to get confrontational about me wearing jeans and shirts. (nevermind that they were HUGE)

Insh'Allah you will be rewarded for your struggle, your jihad. IN the meantime feel free to vent to Allah swt and also to your brothers and sisters in Islam.

 

[DanyalSAC]

although i dont like hitting nails in the head but well once in a while... :lol:

LLOOOOOLLLLL..............*women peeking into other people windows*- i wouldnt b surprised if they were pakistani women ( no offence to pakistani women but u know im rite on this)................

its a good thing i dont socialise that much with the people in the masjid i go to or theyll start saying stuff like * u got a beard but why dont u come to the masjid 5 times a day?*..........

You know it's funny you say that part: The "email pal" I have who lives in the UAE told me he doesn't understand why I hang out with them. He said "You go to the masjid to pray, then you leave. You go home to study hadith and Qur'an, you don't need them." At first I thought he was being a bit uptight but now I can see why.

Ultimately I don't see myself really leaving Islam but I think I will go about it slightly different...

 

[podolski11]

You know it's funny you say that part: The "email pal" I have who lives in the UAE told me he doesn't understand why I hang out with them. He said "You go to the masjid to pray, then you leave. You go home to study hadith and Qur'an, you don't need them." At first I thought he was being a bit uptight but now I can see why.

Ultimately I don't see myself really leaving Islam but I think I will go about it slightly different...

he was rite...this ummah is in a mess nowadays...its everywhere these nosey muslims r jz looking for mistakes in u like needles in a haystack so that they can pick on u....its PATHETIC!!!......thats why i keep reserved with most older people so that they wont have a chance to pick on me........instead of asking ur problem they give u glares???!!!!!!!!!!!.......i mean if ull like into them deeply most of them will b probably consuming riba but that doesnt matter cause they want to pick on u ......i jz feel so pissed at muslims sometimes but thats all i can i guess .... ..........if only i had a secret laboratory like dexter(not the serial killer ) where i could make the muslims different

 

[The_truth]

...I am not saying I am GOING to leave (yet), just that I am TEMPTED to.

I love Allah. I love our Prophet peace be upon him. I am just tired of the struggle. Life is a struggle either way you go, and this I am fully aware. But if you remember my loooong post a while ago talking about what brought me to Islam you know how much of a struggle it has been for me.

This weekend my masjid hosted a Bayyinah class for Friday evening then all day Saturday and Sunday. Due to finances and the fact I work on Sundays I was unable to attend the class. Late Friday night, one of the attendees IMs me and says "The Bayyinah shaykh has said not to let finances get in your way of learning, if someone is not attending because they can't afford it they can still come in for the rest of the weekend". Well since I didn't know about this until after the end of the first day of the class I was STILL unable to attend, and besides I work on Sunday so the only day I could attend would've been Saturday. And what's the point of taking one day of a three day class?

Well, during salat yesterday I was met by angry glares and some not so friendly accusational tones of: "Where were you? Why weren't you here? The class is free so why aren't you taking it?" I almost snapped. The straw just about broke the camel's back. I started resenting the fact that my "brothers" felt that my "excuses" were not "good enough" when NONE of them have the right to make me feel like that. I feel like the Ummah is a far harsher judge on me than Allah is!! At least HE knows what I'm struggling with!

Anyway - I find my life has taken on far more of a burden since I became Muslim than ever before. The peace I found in Islam when I first made my shahadah has slowly eroded. I find my salat has become nothing more than a habit, with very little actual prayer involved. I have no guidance - I've asked 2 of the shuyuk there at my masjid if they had time to talk to me and both said "yes" but they both vanish as soon after the sunnah as they can. I thought my first Ramadan would boost my faith and make it stronger like it does for others. But for me it didn't.

So anyway. I just needed to vent that and the few folks I know online (including on this site) seem to be the only ones in the Ummah who care to listen.

Asalaamu alaikum.

Asalaamu Alaikum wr wb, my brother people are people at the end of the day. One should never look at the people but look at the deen. A saying goes that Islam is that you leave alone that which does not concern you. So no one should be going into other people's affairs. Brother just go to the house of Allah to pray your salah and do ibaadat don't let others bother you remember your there to visit the house of Allah.

It is beyond words for anyone to give up hope of their own deen because of how people treat him. People will be people but that does'nt mean that you give up the truth. The truth will always remain the truth how can that be rejected just for the faults of others?

Let others judge you and say what they want at the end of the day it is'nt between you and them as it NEVER was it is ALWAYS between you and Allah so make the best of every second of your own life and don;t worry about them. just treat them the best and make dua for them but make the best of every second that you have because thsoe seconds can end ANY second!

 

[zbhotto]

Faith increases and decreases over time. We should not be scared when we get weak in faith. Inshallah in future Allah (SWT) will increase our faith. We must not forget we pray to ALLAH (SWT) seventeen times a day,''Guide us to the straight path''.

Allah (SWT) will not leave us astray so easily. He SWT most certainly accept our prayers. You consciousness about temptation to leaving islam is nothing but a reminder from ALLAH. So thank ALLAH (SWT).

 

[Fatima S.Ar]

I'm really shocked !!

and I'm very sad

Don't think of Muslims , think of Islam
do u beleive it's the right religion ?
if yes , complete ur way and don't look at other ppl whom distort Islam
if no , tell us why ??

I'm sure you'll say YES , u are amazing , u could struggle many difficulties and be sure in the end u r the winner ..
you could endure many things passed , can't u endure few things you will pass by ?

You are strong enough , I believe in that just need a courage pushes you .
every body sometimes he feels like he lost everything and all the doors are closed , just a phase and will pass soon .

The last question , Do you love Allah ?
If yes , endure everything for Allah .

It'll be better if u change ur place , if u can I advise u to got to UAE .

My brother Danyal .. please be more strong ..

 

[saima abdullah]

:salam2:
just because of muslims and their attitude you think about to leave Islam
Allah has blessed you to guide you towards islam which is the most beautiful thing on the face of the earth,
now its your choice to limited ease (which is not definite that you will get easy after leaving Islam) or get paradise coz according to a hadith the way to jannah is covered with trials and hardships,(not exact words) and also another narration
عَنْ أَنَسِ بْنِ مَالِكٍ رَضِيَ الله عَنْهُ قَالَ: قَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ: "إِذَا أَرَادَ
اللَّهُ بِعَبْدِهِ الْخَيْرَ عَجَّلَ لَهُ الْعُقُوبَةَ فِي الدُّنْيَا وَإِذَا أَرَادَ اللَّهُ بِعَبْدِهِ الشَّرَّ أَمْسَكَ عَنْهُ بِذَنْبِهِ حَتَّى يُوَافِيَ بِهِ يَوْمَ الْقِيَامَةِ".
أخرجه الترمذى


It is narrated from Anas ibn Malik [RA] that the Prophet [SAWS] said,

"When Allah wants good for his slave, He hastens for him punishment in the dunya. And when Allah wants bad for his slave, He delays his punishment due to his sins until the slave comes with his sins intact on the Day of Judgment."


[Reported in Tirmidhi]
surrrah al - imran states this fact,

﴿كُلُّ نَفْسٍ ذَآئِقَةُ الْمَوْتِ وَإِنَّمَا تُوَفَّوْنَ أُجُورَكُمْ يَوْمَ الْقِيَـمَةِ فَمَن زُحْزِحَ عَنِ النَّارِ وَأُدْخِلَ الْجَنَّةَ فَقَدْ فَازَ وَما الْحَيَوةُ الدُّنْيَا إِلاَّ مَتَـعُ الْغُرُورِ ﴾



(185. Everyone shall taste death. And only on the Day of Resurrection shall you be paid your wages in full. And whoever is moved away from the Fire and admitted to Paradise, he indeed is successful. The life of this world is only the enjoyment of deception.)


its explanation is
Allah said,


﴿فَمَن زُحْزِحَ عَنِ النَّارِ وَأُدْخِلَ الْجَنَّةَ فَقَدْ فَازَ﴾


(And whoever is moved away from the Fire and admitted to Paradise, he indeed is successful.) meaning, whoever is kept away from the Fire, saved from it and entered into Paradise, will have achieved the ultimate success.


Ibn Abi Hatim recorded that Abu Hurayrah said that the Messenger of Allah said,


«مَوْضِعُ سَوْطٍ فِي الْجَنَّةِ خَيْرٌ مِنَ الدُّنْيَا وَمَا فِيهَا، اقْرَأُوا إِنْ شِئْتُمْ »


(A place in Paradise as small as that which is occupied by a whip is better than the world and whatever is on its surface. Read if you will),


﴿فَمَن زُحْزِحَ عَنِ النَّارِ وَأُدْخِلَ الْجَنَّةَ فَقَدْ فَازَ﴾


(And whoever is removed away from the Fire and admitted to Paradise, he indeed is successful). This was collected in the Two Sahihs, but using another chain of narration and without the addition (the Ayah.) Abu Hatim Ibn Hibban recorded it in his Sahih without the addition as did Al-Hakim in his Mustadrak.


Allah said,


﴿وَما الْحَيَوةُ الدُّنْيَا إِلاَّ مَتَـعُ الْغُرُورِ﴾


(The life of this world is only the enjoyment of deception. ) belittling the value of this life and degrading its importance. This life is short, little and finite, just as Allah said,


﴿بَلْ تُؤْثِرُونَ الْحَيَوةَ الدُّنْيَا - وَالاٌّخِرَةُ خَيْرٌ وَأَبْقَى ﴾


(Nay, you prefer the life of this world. Although the Hereafter is better and more lasting.) ﴿87:16,17﴾, and,


﴿وَمَآ أُوتِيتُم مِّن شَىْءٍ فَمَتَـعُ الْحَيَوةِ الدُّنْيَا وَزِينَتُهَا وَمَا عِندَ اللَّهِ خَيْرٌ وَأَبْقَى﴾


(And whatever you have been given is an enjoyment of the life of (this) world and its adornment, and that (Hereafter) which is with Allah is better and will remain forever) ﴿28:60﴾. A Hadith states,


«وَاللهِ مَا الدُّنْيَا فِي الْآخِرَةِ إِلَّا كَمَا يَغْمِسُ أَحَدُكُمْ أُصْبُعَهُ فِي الْيَمِّ، فَلْيَنْظُرْ بِمَ تَرْجِعُ إِلَيْه»


(By Allah! This life, compared to the Hereafter, is just as insignificant as when one of you dips his finger in the sea; let him contemplate what his finger will come back with.)


Qatadah commented on Allah's statement,


﴿وَما الْحَيَوةُ الدُّنْيَا إِلاَّ مَتَـعُ الْغُرُورِ﴾


(The life of this world is only the enjoyment of deception.) "Life is a delight. By Allah, other than Whom there is no deity, it will soon fade away from its people. Therefore, take obedience to Allah from this delight, if you can. Verily, there is no power except from Allah.''tafsir ibne Khateer
i pray for you May Allah end up you and all of us on emaan. ameen
and remember all hardships you are facing will keep you near to Allah and jannah inshaAllah so trust Allah and don't give up.

 

[nizar83]

aselemu aleikum brother!!

bro, i feel sad for you...no muslim should get such a feeling from his fellow companions..
but bro you said it yourself: I feel like the Ummah is a far harsher judge on me than Allah is!! At least HE knows what I'm struggling with!

that really put a smile on my face, you know whatsup..you know ALLAH ta3ala is closer to us then our jugelar veins, he knows our every whisper within our minds!!

the more hardship you go through..the bigger and better the reward..have fait..have sabr!

no believer can say he is a believer, without expecting ALLAH ta3ala to test his belief.

bro, you actually care about being at these classes, i know plenty of muslims that dont even go the the masjeed,,,your doing good inshallah..

keep your head up bro, listen and read some quraan..and whenever you feel like emptying your heart..you got millions of brothers and sisters wolahi! and more important, talk to ALLAH ta3ala ...make du3a for yourself..during your salaah etc

i wish you the best, aselemu aleikum from holland

 

[nyerekareem]

...I am not saying I am GOING to leave (yet), just that I am TEMPTED to.

I love Allah. I love our Prophet peace be upon him. I am just tired of the struggle. Life is a struggle either way you go, and this I am fully aware. But if you remember my loooong post a while ago talking about what brought me to Islam you know how much of a struggle it has been for me.

This weekend my masjid hosted a Bayyinah class for Friday evening then all day Saturday and Sunday. Due to finances and the fact I work on Sundays I was unable to attend the class. Late Friday night, one of the attendees IMs me and says "The Bayyinah shaykh has said not to let finances get in your way of learning, if someone is not attending because they can't afford it they can still come in for the rest of the weekend". Well since I didn't know about this until after the end of the first day of the class I was STILL unable to attend, and besides I work on Sunday so the only day I could attend would've been Saturday. And what's the point of taking one day of a three day class?

Well, during salat yesterday I was met by angry glares and some not so friendly accusational tones of: "Where were you? Why weren't you here? The class is free so why aren't you taking it?" I almost snapped. The straw just about broke the camel's back. I started resenting the fact that my "brothers" felt that my "excuses" were not "good enough" when NONE of them have the right to make me feel like that. I feel like the Ummah is a far harsher judge on me than Allah is!! At least HE knows what I'm struggling with!

Anyway - I find my life has taken on far more of a burden since I became Muslim than ever before. The peace I found in Islam when I first made my shahadah has slowly eroded. I find my salat has become nothing more than a habit, with very little actual prayer involved. I have no guidance - I've asked 2 of the shuyuk there at my masjid if they had time to talk to me and both said "yes" but they both vanish as soon after the sunnah as they can. I thought my first Ramadan would boost my faith and make it stronger like it does for others. But for me it didn't.

So anyway. I just needed to vent that and the few folks I know online (including on this site) seem to be the only ones in the Ummah who care to listen.

Asalaamu alaikum.

:salam2:

in your first paragraph you said " uhibbu Allaha " ( I LOVE ALLAH ) , so that means that you entered into islam for the sake of ALLAH SWT, not for me or anyone else. brother, islam, this great deen is perfect. however, we muslims aren't perfect. ya akhi, if i were to base me being a muslim based upon the actions of muslims, i would've left islam years ago. but i didn't because i said the shahadah for the sake of ALLAH SWT. brother i understand your frustration. i have been muslim over half of my life and the only muslim friends that i have are here on TTI. i never get salaams at the masjid without having to almost force someone. i'm never invited into muslim homes. never invited for an iftar dinner. ramadan is never really joyus for me either, but i put all that stuff to the side because i know that despite the bad action of my brothers in islam, i know that islam is the HAQQ ( TRUTH ).

i know what you are going through, but i recommend that you don't abandon the salat. when someone is becoming weak in their iman, the first thing that begins to deteriorate is their salah, because AS-SALAH is the foundation of piety and one of the first things to be judged if not the first on the yawm al qiyamah. the shaytaan ( audhu billah ) knows this and wishes us to die without being constant in our salah. never forget that the Prophet :saw2: said that if the people knew of the benefit of salatul fajr they would come crawling if they had to. so brother please don't abandon the salat!

i will be keeping you in my du'a

 

[a_stranger]

:salam2:brother

As one of the brothers said if your Islam is for people then it will be very easy to give up but if you are sincere to Allah swt (our creator) then you can`t just leave it ........but faith either increase or decrease for all of us ( born muslem or convert) ...so if we take care of our hearts and knoweldge of Islam we may have more faith and more sweetness in our hearts and peace in our life........One of islamic lessons is to be patient (most important one) .......so be the good one and forgive your brothers and sisters.............Remember muslems are not angels......... Islam teaches us to be so ...but i am sorry to say we can`t we are humans full of mistakes ...........We have to live with this fact ........forgiveness for the sake of Allah swt can do miracales in our life............May Allah keep our faith firm in our hearts AAmen.