Salam Sister Omahmed,
It is unfortunate that you have only been here for such a short time.
You have not seen all the threads recently that have nothing to do with Islam except for people who are Muslim saying how evil my country is and in ONE post, about the withdrawal of troops, I actually saw (possibly as someone's signature, I don't recall) them asking the US to drop a few bombs on Israel on their Kafir way out!
You have no idea the attitudes I have faced simply because I am not a Muslim, I'm not looking to become a revert, and I live in the "Zionist controlled, media deceived, satan loving, idol worshiping, baby killing, Muslim hating" country that is called America. I have been called Kaafir, PUBLICLY and dismissed simply because of that inaccurate belief. While the Arab world may say the word Kafir and be only referring to people who have not said shahada and became Muslim, *I* took it harshly and as an insult of the highest order!! I have not received any sort of apology from this person and no answer to the question as to which Kafir this person thought I was.
I'm 38 years old and yet, because of the fact that I am not a Muslim, I am treated as a nothing by a majority of the people here.
It is a shame you have not been here that long.
You would understand the outrage I feel that I have to daily keep in check. I know I have failed here, and for that, I am sorry. I do not mean to loose my control but please understand, I have never, ever said one thing negative about Islam or ANY of the practices that I've learned about. Most of the concepts are very much like my own Native American Indian teachings, but because *I'M* not a Muslim, my thoughts and opinions have been routinely scoffed at and I have been told over and over that I am blind to the truth.
How much do I have to quietly listen to before I'm allowed to shout?
When I post links that originate from my country, they are dismissed as biased. When others post links that originate from their country, they are applauded as honest journalism.
I have found some wonderful people here and I have learned so much from them and from taking an honest look at what the world's view is and at what is the truth, as is found in the Qur'an.
When I can watch a documentary on a network that is supposed to be about unbiased, scientific anthropological documentation and pick out all the errors and be disgusted by the attitude, what does that say about my eyes? When the formation of Arabic words flows over my tongue with the same ease as English, having never taken a lesson, what does that say about my ears? When I can stand with my brother's and sister's when someone comes in trying to pick a fight while being disguised in the cloak of peace, what does that say about my heart?
When I read a piece of trash as what was written above, am I not allowed to speak up? Change the words. What if it was a christian who had written it about the "evil ways" she saw in a "Christian-kafir" country? Would you not be outraged?
I say to all of you who read these words, do not judge my reactions as being out of line or misunderstanding something, not unless you can honestly say that you have never, and will never react to something in the same manner.
"He who is without sin cast the first stone"-Jesus.
I am the only non-muslim here, that I know of, who stays not to learn how she can revert, but for the simple joy of learning.