wow!! mashaAllah im lost for words, your story touched the innermost part of my heart, i have goosebumps all over my body now! i wanna cry. firstly congratulations on becoming muslim, the greatest blessing Allah gave you. secondly, if you were a murderer, a drug dealer, a rapist, ... anything ... ANY deed you did in youre past life is WIPED away now, you are like a new born baby, Allah forgives all sins for those who repent with sincerity, no sin is to great for Allah, be sure of that. you and others who convert are better than 90% of born muslims, who carry their religion by name only, who put isalm to shame. it is people like you who will raise islam. i admire this strength and remember Allah will test you to see youre sincerity to Him, He will test those whom He loves, so these tests are good indicators for you despite them being tough. rememeber how much the previous prohets were tested: previuos prophets were killed for their faiths (eg yahya) life is a struggle, but the compensation is jannah. i think its amazing that you will want to tell your wife even though Allah has forgiven your past, that shows your sincerity. gauranteed Allah is with you. anyone who judged you is themselves full of sins - its is not suitable for anyone to judge but Allah! and with regards to brothers wanting to be brothers in islam only but not as friends, well this is the sad reality of muslims today, but new muslims can help us change this.
anyway welcome aboard to the new path
hana
anyway welcome aboard to the new path
hana