Isra
aka Tree2008
As salamo alaikome......
Really I cant believe this is happening to me!!!!!!!! AGAIN!!!!!! Some guy came up to my register and he was buying a lot of alcohol like beer and wine. I asked him for his birthday because really he looked like he was just 12 years old so he gave me his birthday and I typed it into the register which is like a computer. Anyway I didnt see the big boss (the boss who is over the whole store) was standing just beside me and a little off to the back of me. He saw the whole transaction. Then he called me into the office and told me he watched me sell alcohol to that guy without asking to see his identification card (like a drivers license) which we are supposed to do that or we can be in alot of trouble.
He listened to my side but clearly I was wrong according to the store policy so he made me write what I did and sign it then he suspended me without pay until further notice. Which means that I cannot go back to work until he calls me to come back or IF he decides that I am fired he will call me to bring my employee ID card in and sign the termination papers. He didnt say how long I am suspended.......just until I hear from him when he decides what to do about the situation.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH MEEEEEEEEE????????????? WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME??????????? I could lose BOTH jobs within a few weeks of each other?????????????? WHAT KIND OF LOSER AM I???????????? Really I think this is a nightmare and it CANT be happening!!!!!!!!!!!
I am soooooooo depressed really I feel like such a loser!!!!! I dont know why this keeps happening to me. A few weeks ago I was doing ok with 2 jobs now maybe I have NO JOB!!!!!!!!!!
Maybe I should just put my son with his father and disappear. Thats what I feel like doing right now and I am so serious. I keep making big mistakes when I am trying to do everything in the right way now. Before when I was doing everything with no thought of my actions or what will happen everything in my life was fine. Now I have Islam and I am trying so hard to be a good person and do everything in the right way but everything is turning out so bad for me.
Is this because Allah is testing me? Because if its a test to see if I will lose Islam you can be sure I will NOT. NOTHING is going to make me lose Islam even if I am living in the street with some cardboard box as shelter. I dont care I will STILL be on my knees with my forehead to the ground praying 5 times a day. Islam is the only thing in this world that is important to me and even if I lose EVERYTHING I will NEVER lose Islam. I PROMISE TO ALLAH.............AND TO MYSELF.
I am kicking myself for this huge mistake and I am praying this stupid guy wont fire me. Please pray for me because I really need your dua's right now.
From the BIG LOSER...........Isra*
Really I cant believe this is happening to me!!!!!!!! AGAIN!!!!!! Some guy came up to my register and he was buying a lot of alcohol like beer and wine. I asked him for his birthday because really he looked like he was just 12 years old so he gave me his birthday and I typed it into the register which is like a computer. Anyway I didnt see the big boss (the boss who is over the whole store) was standing just beside me and a little off to the back of me. He saw the whole transaction. Then he called me into the office and told me he watched me sell alcohol to that guy without asking to see his identification card (like a drivers license) which we are supposed to do that or we can be in alot of trouble.
He listened to my side but clearly I was wrong according to the store policy so he made me write what I did and sign it then he suspended me without pay until further notice. Which means that I cannot go back to work until he calls me to come back or IF he decides that I am fired he will call me to bring my employee ID card in and sign the termination papers. He didnt say how long I am suspended.......just until I hear from him when he decides what to do about the situation.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH MEEEEEEEEE????????????? WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME??????????? I could lose BOTH jobs within a few weeks of each other?????????????? WHAT KIND OF LOSER AM I???????????? Really I think this is a nightmare and it CANT be happening!!!!!!!!!!!
I am soooooooo depressed really I feel like such a loser!!!!! I dont know why this keeps happening to me. A few weeks ago I was doing ok with 2 jobs now maybe I have NO JOB!!!!!!!!!!
Maybe I should just put my son with his father and disappear. Thats what I feel like doing right now and I am so serious. I keep making big mistakes when I am trying to do everything in the right way now. Before when I was doing everything with no thought of my actions or what will happen everything in my life was fine. Now I have Islam and I am trying so hard to be a good person and do everything in the right way but everything is turning out so bad for me.
Is this because Allah is testing me? Because if its a test to see if I will lose Islam you can be sure I will NOT. NOTHING is going to make me lose Islam even if I am living in the street with some cardboard box as shelter. I dont care I will STILL be on my knees with my forehead to the ground praying 5 times a day. Islam is the only thing in this world that is important to me and even if I lose EVERYTHING I will NEVER lose Islam. I PROMISE TO ALLAH.............AND TO MYSELF.
I am kicking myself for this huge mistake and I am praying this stupid guy wont fire me. Please pray for me because I really need your dua's right now.
From the BIG LOSER...........Isra*