my story
I grew up in a poor part of southLondon where most men get different women pregnant and run away 95% percent of the time so my mother was forced to take responsibility for both roles. She was a caring mother but also had to get two jobs to pay the rent and bills, because of the lack of a real father around. ..:
So I was left at home while my mum was working hard and I was raised by TV and music, Hollywood, MTV and (now) channel u and I saw all the bling bling, nice cars, the money, the boats, the houses, the women and all the rest and I wanted it all...!
So I looked around my environment and surroundings and the people it looked like had money and material things where the crack, weed , heroin dealers and also the credit card fraudsters, armed robbers, burglars and gang members.
So I thought college and university looks like a waste of time, all the people going there are broke, so I linked up with a friend from secondary school that was in my class that was already in a gang and started hanging around with him.
At that time my mum had also chucked me out because of my unruliness and bad behavior towards her and sometimes to my younger brother and younger sister.
I ended up for the next years of my life going in and out of jail and spending most of my time on the inside and few months out and that became my life (even though I had a flat).
Until one day in jail when I was bored like every other day and I picked up a Quran and read it and one sentence hit me:
"Is there any one more misguided than the person who makes his desires his God."
And for the first time I realized that money,girls and my desires were the false God's that I worshipped and I was a 100% slave to them, without actually knowing it.
And the Quran helped me to realize, the people that I was following unconsciously, were the rappers, actors and mcs these were my false prophets because I tried to act like them, look like them, dress like them , talk like them, dance like them, even think like them, in every single way.
And what really shocked me were the clubs, raves and parties I went to religiously every weekend, they were really my mosques that I was worshipping performing (pagan) rituals in.
I realized was extremely religious without knowing it!!!
And it took this book, the Quran, to let me know for one moment in my life that I was worshiping myself and money and not God who I should be worshipping.
So I read the Quran even more and when I realized that every other faith Christianity, capitalism, Hinduism, communism, Sikhism, secularism, Buddhism, Judaism and playerism, tells people to worship men or created things like rocks, stones or animals instead of God, so I decided Islam is the only faith or belief for me.
And instead of dressing like Game, 50 cent, Snoop, Jim Jones or Dipset, I started to look, dress, act, behave like Moses, Jesus, Noah or Muhammad because they where all Muslims, which means in English "one that submits to the will of God". These are my role models because they tell people only to worship God, not them or created things.