Isra
aka Tree2008
As-Salamo Alaikome my dear brothers and sisters at TTI.......
I hope you are all in good health Inshallah......
I thought it would be appropriate to introduce myself at this time even though I have been a member of TTI for some months now and certainly a Muslimah in my heart. As the title to my thread suggests I will be a REAL Muslimah in a few very short weeks!!!! My long anticipated journey will begin in just 7 days and I will be on an airplane headed for Morocco (with a short layover in Amsterdam) to take my shahada!!!!!!
As you can imagine I am sooooooooooooo happy and excited and nervous!!!! There are too many emotions going on inside of me right now but most importantly is my reverence for my lord. I will devote the rest of my life to Islam Inshallah.
Let me tell you about myself.......I was baptised Catholic as a baby and forced to go to church as a child. I never truely believed in the way I was being taught about God and some of the things I was told just never really seemed to make sense to me. I felt something deep inside of me all of my life that made me want to search for the truth but of course living in this country (USA) I think I was looking in all the wrong places or maybe it was that Allah felt it wasnt time for me to know or maybe if I did find the truth I wouldnt have understood it or accepted it........Im not sure what the reason was but Allah didnt guide me until this past year.
Last summer I met someone online who intrigued me in a way that not too many people have been able to do. We had many debates about religion and I kept insisting that Jesus (PBUH) was Allah's son but each time he would come back at me with evidence from the Quran. He inspired me to begin my search again after I had finally given up and believe me that was not an easy thing to do. I began by listening to Sheik Ahmed Deedat and I was very impressed but still not quite ready to give up everything I had known my whole life. Finally I decided to make an attempt to read the Quran. I found a good translation and downloaded it to my computer so each day I would put some time aside to read. By the time I was into the second chapter I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I couldnt even finish one sentence without crying and I had to keep stopping and coming back to it. I remember one day being in the shower and just bursting into tears. I cried and cried and cried. Some of my tears were for my past errors and being so ashamed at all the time I wasted in darkness. Most of my tears were because I felt so humbled to think Allah would choose me to guide. I didnt feel worthy of this great honor he was bestowing upon me. I wondered how he could love me still after I had basically turned my back on everything good.
I must say I believe with my entire body, soul, mind and heart that the Quran is the word of Allah and that there is no God but Allah alone. I believe that our beloved prophet Muhammed (Sal Allahu Allahi Wa Salam) is the true messenger of Allah who brought to mankind this wonderful mercy from Allah to guide us all. And in a few short weeks I will announce from my heart this belief I have. This will be my shahada and it will be the best day of my life. I will be reborn as a Muslimah and inshallah I will die as a Muslimah. I pray Allah will be pleased with me. Ameen.
I hope you are all in good health Inshallah......
I thought it would be appropriate to introduce myself at this time even though I have been a member of TTI for some months now and certainly a Muslimah in my heart. As the title to my thread suggests I will be a REAL Muslimah in a few very short weeks!!!! My long anticipated journey will begin in just 7 days and I will be on an airplane headed for Morocco (with a short layover in Amsterdam) to take my shahada!!!!!!
As you can imagine I am sooooooooooooo happy and excited and nervous!!!! There are too many emotions going on inside of me right now but most importantly is my reverence for my lord. I will devote the rest of my life to Islam Inshallah.
Let me tell you about myself.......I was baptised Catholic as a baby and forced to go to church as a child. I never truely believed in the way I was being taught about God and some of the things I was told just never really seemed to make sense to me. I felt something deep inside of me all of my life that made me want to search for the truth but of course living in this country (USA) I think I was looking in all the wrong places or maybe it was that Allah felt it wasnt time for me to know or maybe if I did find the truth I wouldnt have understood it or accepted it........Im not sure what the reason was but Allah didnt guide me until this past year.
Last summer I met someone online who intrigued me in a way that not too many people have been able to do. We had many debates about religion and I kept insisting that Jesus (PBUH) was Allah's son but each time he would come back at me with evidence from the Quran. He inspired me to begin my search again after I had finally given up and believe me that was not an easy thing to do. I began by listening to Sheik Ahmed Deedat and I was very impressed but still not quite ready to give up everything I had known my whole life. Finally I decided to make an attempt to read the Quran. I found a good translation and downloaded it to my computer so each day I would put some time aside to read. By the time I was into the second chapter I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I couldnt even finish one sentence without crying and I had to keep stopping and coming back to it. I remember one day being in the shower and just bursting into tears. I cried and cried and cried. Some of my tears were for my past errors and being so ashamed at all the time I wasted in darkness. Most of my tears were because I felt so humbled to think Allah would choose me to guide. I didnt feel worthy of this great honor he was bestowing upon me. I wondered how he could love me still after I had basically turned my back on everything good.
I must say I believe with my entire body, soul, mind and heart that the Quran is the word of Allah and that there is no God but Allah alone. I believe that our beloved prophet Muhammed (Sal Allahu Allahi Wa Salam) is the true messenger of Allah who brought to mankind this wonderful mercy from Allah to guide us all. And in a few short weeks I will announce from my heart this belief I have. This will be my shahada and it will be the best day of my life. I will be reborn as a Muslimah and inshallah I will die as a Muslimah. I pray Allah will be pleased with me. Ameen.
