Renee
Junior Member
Last weekend I couldn't handle the enormous pressure and nagging about converting so I decided to go off-line and taking a time-out as they say in sports. I haven't thought much islam during these days at all, except for one of the friends I have made here. Last time we talked I assured her of how much she meant to my and that I didn't want to disappoint. Now I am afraid I'm going to do it anyway. Just know this, I came into this with an open heart and mind. It was never my intention to hurt anyone.
But these days off has given me time to think about I was about to do. I have surfed on sites I enjoyed, watching movies, listening to some good music and so on. And I have realized that how much of a westerner I am heart and soul. I cannot simply compromise away all these things I love and change it for a lifestyle so alien to our culture, it could as well be from another planet as far as I am concerned. I have all my western cultural heritage in my bagage. So I have slowly come to grips with that this life or path is not for me. So we part now and here. You live your lives according to your beliefs and I do that to mine.
I simply can't handle living like you do. Maybe I should have thought about all this before I started all this and saved both you and me a lot of trouble but done is done and can't be changed. I wanted to delete my account but couldn't find any such function so I will simply log out, this time for forever.
Have a nice life and peace and goodbye.
But these days off has given me time to think about I was about to do. I have surfed on sites I enjoyed, watching movies, listening to some good music and so on. And I have realized that how much of a westerner I am heart and soul. I cannot simply compromise away all these things I love and change it for a lifestyle so alien to our culture, it could as well be from another planet as far as I am concerned. I have all my western cultural heritage in my bagage. So I have slowly come to grips with that this life or path is not for me. So we part now and here. You live your lives according to your beliefs and I do that to mine.
I simply can't handle living like you do. Maybe I should have thought about all this before I started all this and saved both you and me a lot of trouble but done is done and can't be changed. I wanted to delete my account but couldn't find any such function so I will simply log out, this time for forever.
Have a nice life and peace and goodbye.