assalamu alaikum,
reading all this stories, everywhere Im finding some pieces of my one...
living in a family of christians (father catholic-not going to church,against this community saying that they r the richest in the world which is unfair, etc.; mom is kalvinist- i was brought up in this religion-who attends masses, prayes every evening,was leading me to pray ,truly believes in love n family), who had divorced 17years ago. Firstly I must say that influenced me a lot, i was struggling with my selfconfidence n till now Im very sensitive inspite Im a strong person, able to survive enywhere.I was struggling to find myself, how to live, what n where to live ...I had an interrest in medicine n nursing so I studied nursing (11 years all together). I worked in 2 hospitals n love my work very much- i like to help people but also Im interrested in scientiffic works.
My social life was various-always different people, mostly musicians or people interreested in music. They are freeminded, "excusing" smoking n drinkin be saying "im smokin or drinkin to get into a mood to produce great song"..i was goin out but knew its not good, why to be under drugs or alcohol to create somethin, should proudly create songs without that. They did not stop or even listened to me. I stopped meeting them.
Iy family loves me but r too busy by their problems- dad has a new wife, mom affected by divorce still...in between i was searching the real meaning of our existence n since app 5 years I regularly read books of differrent religions.
I studied buddhism n I liked it for its peraceful phylosoophy,than I've read tantra, zen, judaism..I knew christianity, read some chapters of Bible, saw many movies.
There was a set of books of different religions beautifuly covered in leather in one shop. iIdidnt hv enough money to buy all of them but I decided i'll buy 2 peaces each time n will read them. I bought judaism n buddhism as fors, left there taoism, hinduiosm n as last I was planning to buy Islam...now the thruth is that I heard only negative things about Islam, so I wasn't very much interrested to read it among the first.
Because I wasn't happy in Slovakia very much n felt like to travel n gain some experience in nursing from western countries, also to meet different people, I decided to go to Ireland where I am now for 2,5 years. After couple of months I began to work in a nursing home where I met a great person, now my soulmate-and he is a Muslim!Immediatelly we knew we can talk n talk..he was very happy that Im interrested in Islam n with passion was explain me every single question I'd given him.I was very excited to listen about Islam- finally there was someone to tell me the truth about Islam, the real life of a real Muslim. He opened my eyes, told me everithin. Now I selfstudy Islam, I managed to buy a Slovak version of Qur'an with explanations (better for me to understand as slovak is my native language), two beautiful big boogs in leather, I have another Qur'an in slovak without explanation and also I have 2 in english- Im becoming a collector. I realized I was always a Muslim as I always believed there Is one great superpower, we cannot imagine n express exactelly.In Qur'an Im findig great things which make sence, are logic, fair n also scientifically proven that Qur'an has been revealed from Allah thru angel Gabriel to Mohammed (pbuh). I found the TRUTH. But before I will convert publicly (I did in my room n my whitness was Allah), I want to finish Qur'an.
N also to find here some muslim friends I can chat with.
With my friend Im daily in contact n guess what- we love each other. We want to get married, but need to wait for some things to get sorted. Hope that his parents will commend him for bringing me to Islam n will accept me. That is my biggest fear, but I'll pray- Allah blessed me already by sending me this person through whom I became "to understand" so meany things.
Please say a little prayer for me to Allah to continue to lead me on a true path n my friend's parents to accept me as a real Muslimah.
Salams.
reading all this stories, everywhere Im finding some pieces of my one...
living in a family of christians (father catholic-not going to church,against this community saying that they r the richest in the world which is unfair, etc.; mom is kalvinist- i was brought up in this religion-who attends masses, prayes every evening,was leading me to pray ,truly believes in love n family), who had divorced 17years ago. Firstly I must say that influenced me a lot, i was struggling with my selfconfidence n till now Im very sensitive inspite Im a strong person, able to survive enywhere.I was struggling to find myself, how to live, what n where to live ...I had an interrest in medicine n nursing so I studied nursing (11 years all together). I worked in 2 hospitals n love my work very much- i like to help people but also Im interrested in scientiffic works.
My social life was various-always different people, mostly musicians or people interreested in music. They are freeminded, "excusing" smoking n drinkin be saying "im smokin or drinkin to get into a mood to produce great song"..i was goin out but knew its not good, why to be under drugs or alcohol to create somethin, should proudly create songs without that. They did not stop or even listened to me. I stopped meeting them.
Iy family loves me but r too busy by their problems- dad has a new wife, mom affected by divorce still...in between i was searching the real meaning of our existence n since app 5 years I regularly read books of differrent religions.
I studied buddhism n I liked it for its peraceful phylosoophy,than I've read tantra, zen, judaism..I knew christianity, read some chapters of Bible, saw many movies.
There was a set of books of different religions beautifuly covered in leather in one shop. iIdidnt hv enough money to buy all of them but I decided i'll buy 2 peaces each time n will read them. I bought judaism n buddhism as fors, left there taoism, hinduiosm n as last I was planning to buy Islam...now the thruth is that I heard only negative things about Islam, so I wasn't very much interrested to read it among the first.
Because I wasn't happy in Slovakia very much n felt like to travel n gain some experience in nursing from western countries, also to meet different people, I decided to go to Ireland where I am now for 2,5 years. After couple of months I began to work in a nursing home where I met a great person, now my soulmate-and he is a Muslim!Immediatelly we knew we can talk n talk..he was very happy that Im interrested in Islam n with passion was explain me every single question I'd given him.I was very excited to listen about Islam- finally there was someone to tell me the truth about Islam, the real life of a real Muslim. He opened my eyes, told me everithin. Now I selfstudy Islam, I managed to buy a Slovak version of Qur'an with explanations (better for me to understand as slovak is my native language), two beautiful big boogs in leather, I have another Qur'an in slovak without explanation and also I have 2 in english- Im becoming a collector. I realized I was always a Muslim as I always believed there Is one great superpower, we cannot imagine n express exactelly.In Qur'an Im findig great things which make sence, are logic, fair n also scientifically proven that Qur'an has been revealed from Allah thru angel Gabriel to Mohammed (pbuh). I found the TRUTH. But before I will convert publicly (I did in my room n my whitness was Allah), I want to finish Qur'an.
N also to find here some muslim friends I can chat with.
With my friend Im daily in contact n guess what- we love each other. We want to get married, but need to wait for some things to get sorted. Hope that his parents will commend him for bringing me to Islam n will accept me. That is my biggest fear, but I'll pray- Allah blessed me already by sending me this person through whom I became "to understand" so meany things.
Please say a little prayer for me to Allah to continue to lead me on a true path n my friend's parents to accept me as a real Muslimah.
Salams.